emersion74

Can't sleep anymore. Too stressed all the time. The sun finally came out today and I'm going to try to enjoy it. Got a new bike and tires for my old one. Soon I'm going to be a lean mean biking machine. I guess I really need to though I've packed on a few pounds this last year. Oh well how've you been?

Today on "My psycho ex blog". I discovered her new beau is a heroin addict. And she may have exposed our daughter to him while he was high. I don't even have the words to describe this. But if this ever happens again I will do unspeakable carnage.

This morning for my birthday some coworkers took me to a late night pho' resteraunt. When we were leaving a homeless man asked if any of us smoked and nothing more. Usually I disregard most "homeless" I see because I feel most of them aren't but take advantage of our desire to be nice. This man was different, he was eating food out of a...
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Being replaced is always difficult. I seem to go between being alright to crushing depression. I know this other man is touching her but part of me still wants her back. It's over, she's made me angry and I don't want to speak to her. But I still want her back. It's as though I could forgive everything if she just said she was sorry....
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My wife asked me and my daughter out to eat today. My wife and I are seperated just not legally, but we don't live together. When it was time to go she pulled me aside in the parking lot and told me she had staarted dating someone. I've had my suspicions but now I know the truth. It still hurts but I guess it's time...
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looked on craigslist for a recumbent bike, it's my new obsession. Someday I'll get a hobby and start excersizing. Oh well not today. Barely feeling coherent. I wish i had more to say, but as I get older I fear my brain is slowing down and I have a fog that will never lift. Someday I'll get better, someday.

I am having the worst luck opening cans lately. The other day I tried to open a can of coconut milk and it exploded all over my crotch, I looked like a I had shot the hugest load. Today I was trying to drain a can of tunafish, the same thing. Bits of tuna everywhere. I need a vacation.

Going to look for a new bike today. I'm looking towards a recumbent. My fat ass wants to lean back and ride in style from now on.

Am sitting here in my house alone again. For once I actually feel lonely. I probably shouldn't be turning down those chances for hook ups, but my life is a trainwreck as it is and I couldn't stand trying to entertain another human being. I seem destined to spend my life taking care of other people and not being appreciated for it. Oh well if...
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Have been extremely sluggish lately. To many medicines. Hope I adjust soon, am starting to go crazy.