Am sitting here in my house alone again. For once I actually feel lonely. I probably shouldn't be turning down those chances for hook ups, but my life is a trainwreck as it is and I couldn't stand trying to entertain another human being. I seem destined to spend my life taking care of other people and not being appreciated for it. Oh well if you do things for reward what kind of person are you?
Started working out agian. I'm the biggest I've ever been my whole life and it bothers me. The last ten years instead of standing my ground I retreated into myself. Now that I'm aware of what i look like I'm disturbed and only barely recognize the face staring back. What did I expect?
It's time to move on and regroup. I'll comeback out of this slump, but this time I'm going to spend the next few years alone on purpose. I want to start seeing this beautiful country through my own eyes.
Started working out agian. I'm the biggest I've ever been my whole life and it bothers me. The last ten years instead of standing my ground I retreated into myself. Now that I'm aware of what i look like I'm disturbed and only barely recognize the face staring back. What did I expect?
It's time to move on and regroup. I'll comeback out of this slump, but this time I'm going to spend the next few years alone on purpose. I want to start seeing this beautiful country through my own eyes.