ember

Thanks for all the words of encouragement during my brief period of the blahs. I think the best advice I received (and probably the most obvious), was from Fallen....make a list, duh! I think it's a good idea to plan what you're going to do for the day so that way you don't find yourself scrounging for something to do later on. However, getting the ambition to make the list to begin with is a whole different story...

So, I still haven't accomplished much. I taught myself a few new songs on keyboard (all from the Inu Yasha series, of course) but I can't really do anything with them since the MIDI cable I have requires an adapter to hook into my computer, and I drew some pictures but the power cord to my scanner is missing as well. Fuck, fuck, fuck. In otherwords, there was no point in me mentioning this at all. But I did anyway, and you read it. So ha.

And now I must ask you all to join together again and bestow upon me in your infinite wisdom yet more advice.

I got invited to attend the Chaser event in Las Vegas coming up on the 29th of this month. I don't think I really understood what I was getting myself into when I said yes, but now it's starting to dawn on me just what a scary prospect it is. First of all, I'd like to say I'm really incredibly shy, and I tend to clam up around strangers. So I agree to do a fashion show...well, that was just brilliant. I've never done anything like this before in my life! And I'm really not the kind of person who jumps up in front of everyone and tries to draw attention. In fact, I'm usually the person who stands against the wall all night and watches the action happen. Crap, I hope I'm not the one annoying chick who ruins the whole show.

And this is where I need advice...how do I convince myself to not be nervous and just go with the flow? Is there some superior line of thinking I should follow that will miraculously purge all negative thoughts from my system and transform me into a runway-working machine? Or some sort of recipe for a magical elixer that the half-blood prince wrote down in his potions book somewhere? (Had to work in a Harry Potter reference somewhere.) I finally finished that book and accidentally gave the ending away to Steve, oops.