i just fear there are lots of things going on behind my back, and i guess when i get word of things then i get upset, because it proves my hypothesis...

last night was lots of fun... jeff and i ended up going to walmart, then driving around decatur for a bit, then went to this really neat silo out in the middle of nowhere and looked at the stars and talked...

today thing went to hell in other realms, maybe they'll be better later, or maybe they won't, i'm so tired of it, i just want to feel special and loved, although that strays away from the "plan" blargh.

i got my check for judging $150, woot.