everyone seems so sad today.
i feel sad today.
here's my current circle of death. i go to work to make money for college, i hate work, work makes me busy for more time than i can really spend making money, without the money though i can't have the money for college, but all my money that i make doesn't go to work it goes to my cost of living, and i always feel poor, it just never ends, work makes me sick and then i'm too sick to do the work for school and then i get further behind... bluh.
everyone is still broken up, i'm not sure if i want to continue paying the amount i'm paying for this education, i love the people here but i don't think i'm going to be as prepared as i could be for my future as i could be elsewhere, also the reason i would stay would be for toby as well, but that's not a certainty in my future, so why spend so much money on something that isn't for certain.
but i suppose my degree from here will look better than a degree i could get from the other place i'm thinking about going back to so i'll stay here, well at least that's my decision for now, next year i'll be a hermit, then i won't need to spend money, and maybe this summer i can avoid everyone who yells and complains about how much money this school costs so i don't feel terrible every moment that i'm here.
blarh...
tomorrow has to be better than this.
i feel sad today.
here's my current circle of death. i go to work to make money for college, i hate work, work makes me busy for more time than i can really spend making money, without the money though i can't have the money for college, but all my money that i make doesn't go to work it goes to my cost of living, and i always feel poor, it just never ends, work makes me sick and then i'm too sick to do the work for school and then i get further behind... bluh.
everyone is still broken up, i'm not sure if i want to continue paying the amount i'm paying for this education, i love the people here but i don't think i'm going to be as prepared as i could be for my future as i could be elsewhere, also the reason i would stay would be for toby as well, but that's not a certainty in my future, so why spend so much money on something that isn't for certain.
but i suppose my degree from here will look better than a degree i could get from the other place i'm thinking about going back to so i'll stay here, well at least that's my decision for now, next year i'll be a hermit, then i won't need to spend money, and maybe this summer i can avoid everyone who yells and complains about how much money this school costs so i don't feel terrible every moment that i'm here.
blarh...
tomorrow has to be better than this.
robodeathcat:
hang in there. I know exactly about how you feel about the work cycle thing. ugh. belive me. Hopefully you'll be better off when its all done with, but when trying to better yourself feels like going through the motions, it can be a real pain. and having everyone around you all sad can't help either. trying times just make you stronger, right?