Fiiiinally after shooting my set with @sunshine in February my set comes out in 2 days! The queue is so long but I am glad that its finally time for my set to go live!
In 2009, I lived in San Diego and I worked at Urban Outfitters. This guy was walking by me while I was smoking outside of work and asked me if I was a SuicideGirl. I had no idea what he was talking about but he said if I wasn't I should look it up and apply. I went home, did exactly that and the rest was history. When I first started perusing through Suicidegirls I fell in love with @radeo and @bully when Bully had short hair and Radeo did the "Thriller" set. They were everything that I thought was beautiful in a woman. Not like the women you see everyday in the magazines who try so hard to look fake or dolled up. But real girls who have tattoos and piercings just like me.
I think when you truly love suicidegirls you get addicted to not only the girls but the community. Within the past year I have gained so many friends from SG and all are so welcoming and loving @dabalinasuicide @astr0 @nubia @chulasuicide @satorisutra808 @Owsley just to name a few. We all support each other and give each other love. You think that most of my supporters would come from creepers but honestly most of my support comes from Hopefuls and family. It feels good to be a part of a community where you feel loved instead of an outkast. I guess here at SG we are all Outkasts.
When people ask "why do you want to be a suicidegirl?" Its hard for me to answer because there are so many factors that play into it but I always try to keep the answer simple.
I grew up in a family where my Mom had her plan for me and anything I did that wasnt what she wanted was wrong. I struggled a long time to accept myself because I thought everything I did and loved wasnt what I was supposed to be doing.
I want the chance to give that 19 year old girl who is confused and has never belonged to a community who supports her and her sexuality without judging the chance to fully love herself and say "I don't need to be like everyone else. Being me is just fine and I am fucking awesome."
