ok scroll to the first message because I can't seem to be awake enough to put them in order. Andrew contacted me yesterday and I dont know what to do. Maybe some of you darlings out there will have some advice.
the last one I got from him yesterday
I am also crushed, Every waking moment everything, thing I see, every slightest action that I do reminds me of you, even in my dreams you are there. I have been crying inwards and thinking to myself what have I done it feels like my life is crumbling around me, and I did not want to say goodbye forever I was just confused and just did not know what to do. You have been everything to me too and I feel like everything around me is not right or complete. Like I have always said to you I never would break your heart, even though i know it seems like i have but I did not mean to. As for let my mother treat you like that I was scared I have never seen my mother like that and I did not know what to do about when she is like that. I can't forget about you and i don't think I can pick up and move on myself and I do not expect the same from you, as you hold my heart, and I can't live my live knowing you are away from me, and you are right there is something I can do but it will just take time for me to learn it. I know you would be there to hold my hand through the hard times, even now when i am unsure of myself I feel like holding that familiar hand of yours.I know I told you to go home and I am sry to have sad that but I did not know what else to do, can you plz forgive me. You are right my life is mine to control Tiffany, and I have to take control of it and I am sure u know that will take time, as the saying goes; Rome was not built in a day.
my reply
Sent: Monday, May 12, 2008 11:52:05 AM
Subject: Re: You are still on my mind
I don't know what to say my whole world is crushed. I could see my life and yours as one. And just because your mom saw how much you love me she has banished you from me. I just don't even know what to do with myself. I cry all day and all night and even my sleep my dreams are of you I can not find peace. I don;t understand how you were willing to say goodbye to me Forever. YOu have been my bestfriend, lover, master my everything in this world. And I am hopeless in the situation. I never thought you would truely break my heart but I knew you had the power. It hurts me to know how you let her treat me yell and scream at me and throw me out like trash no one in this world deserves that for loving someone. How am I supposed to just pick up and forget you when my heart is in Canada in a million pieces. How can you want to live you life like that? there is always something you could do. and if you are too scared you should have known I would have held your hand. You know how hard it was for me to drive home just to leave but you told me to. I didn't ask for this and I certainly didn't think this would happen I am still in shock. Everything reminds me of you. I don't know what to do Andrew but I know only you can control your life unless you let someone else. And in this case I can't do anything but sit here in pieces.
first message
Date: Monday, May 12, 2008, 11:27 AM
Hi, I can't stop thinking about u i really don't know what to think anymore I feel that i have made the biggest mistake in my life. I don't know what to do, you still mean the world to me. Can u forgive my lack of courage. SincerelyAndrew
yesterday this song came on tv and its like it was wrote for my situation
SO I just want to say thank you to everyone who is there for me it means the world to me. I just wish I know what to do withmyself.
the last one I got from him yesterday
I am also crushed, Every waking moment everything, thing I see, every slightest action that I do reminds me of you, even in my dreams you are there. I have been crying inwards and thinking to myself what have I done it feels like my life is crumbling around me, and I did not want to say goodbye forever I was just confused and just did not know what to do. You have been everything to me too and I feel like everything around me is not right or complete. Like I have always said to you I never would break your heart, even though i know it seems like i have but I did not mean to. As for let my mother treat you like that I was scared I have never seen my mother like that and I did not know what to do about when she is like that. I can't forget about you and i don't think I can pick up and move on myself and I do not expect the same from you, as you hold my heart, and I can't live my live knowing you are away from me, and you are right there is something I can do but it will just take time for me to learn it. I know you would be there to hold my hand through the hard times, even now when i am unsure of myself I feel like holding that familiar hand of yours.I know I told you to go home and I am sry to have sad that but I did not know what else to do, can you plz forgive me. You are right my life is mine to control Tiffany, and I have to take control of it and I am sure u know that will take time, as the saying goes; Rome was not built in a day.
my reply
Sent: Monday, May 12, 2008 11:52:05 AM
Subject: Re: You are still on my mind
I don't know what to say my whole world is crushed. I could see my life and yours as one. And just because your mom saw how much you love me she has banished you from me. I just don't even know what to do with myself. I cry all day and all night and even my sleep my dreams are of you I can not find peace. I don;t understand how you were willing to say goodbye to me Forever. YOu have been my bestfriend, lover, master my everything in this world. And I am hopeless in the situation. I never thought you would truely break my heart but I knew you had the power. It hurts me to know how you let her treat me yell and scream at me and throw me out like trash no one in this world deserves that for loving someone. How am I supposed to just pick up and forget you when my heart is in Canada in a million pieces. How can you want to live you life like that? there is always something you could do. and if you are too scared you should have known I would have held your hand. You know how hard it was for me to drive home just to leave but you told me to. I didn't ask for this and I certainly didn't think this would happen I am still in shock. Everything reminds me of you. I don't know what to do Andrew but I know only you can control your life unless you let someone else. And in this case I can't do anything but sit here in pieces.
first message
Date: Monday, May 12, 2008, 11:27 AM
Hi, I can't stop thinking about u i really don't know what to think anymore I feel that i have made the biggest mistake in my life. I don't know what to do, you still mean the world to me. Can u forgive my lack of courage. SincerelyAndrew
yesterday this song came on tv and its like it was wrote for my situation
SO I just want to say thank you to everyone who is there for me it means the world to me. I just wish I know what to do withmyself.
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i can imagine what you are feeling. when you give someone your everything, and this kind of thing happens, it's devastating. just realize that YOU did nothing wrong. you are an amazing woman, and an inspiration to many. i know you're sad, but just know that he needs to get his shit together, or this will just keep happening and happening. i'm not going to tell you to just move on while he figures it out, there is no way. but in the same breath, don't wait for him tiffany. you have too much to offer to someone who would cherish your heart, and never make you feel like you do now.
if you need anything, you know where i am doll.
muah