A little update :
Today I am home sick took my first full sick day in months. I have been at my job a year as of this week so its also my first payed sick day. I was supposed to be getting a raise but that has yet to happen. Why is it that good hard workers get shit on and ppl who should not be in certain fields get the red carpet treatment. I am done going above and beyond and not getting anything but shit on.
So my day off consisted of sleeping in weehoo its been months since I have been able to do this even on weekends. I have been packing somethings here n there. Watching some TV which I rarely do unless its a movie.
lil updates in my life: I am in a great relationship if you didn;t already know that. We have been dating for almost 2 months and things couldn't be better. Its so weird when you meet someone and just click on all the levels that matter. Not having to comproise issues that are really important to you. Like family. At the same time its hard to not stop and wonder do I deserve this? Don't mess it up don't be someone your not, wait I am being myself and its great. huh.... How is it that I have gone years and years feeling like I was living someone elses life. forced to play a role that wasn't me just to think I was living life when really I was dead. I am so happy and in love it really makes me look at everything differently especially my past. I am a little scared but I think now I know its human.
I am working on getting my house straight and ready to sell this is one of the toughest things I have had to do. Alot of work needs to be done and I am only one person. I am also trying to take it so as to not over do it. Between being so happy and work stressing me the last thing I wanna do it have my house stress me out too.
My plan is once Brian's house is built which there is no time limit but we are both thinking around May. then I will be moving up there with him. In the country, no one to bother me. Just the beautiful outdoors. We also are both hoping that our divorces will be final by then. Mine which has taken almost 2 years because my husband is a lazy bum and just taking his sweet time although he is already married. long story there though. And brian and his X are and should be getting the divorce in May. So we are waiting to move in and all till that is done to save from any problems on his end.
I just am an impatient person and time is always something that eats me up. Luckly it is flying by pretty fast. I mean I know you all know when you meet someone and feel remotely how I do you feel as though you have known that person forever and its hard to think of how things were before they came along and really who would want to right. I am not even sure where I am going with all of this ramblings n such.
I think being as it is 2 something here in the afternoon I will shower and begin my day. I know I haven't been keeping up with many ppl or there journals or the groups. And I am sorry but I am thinking about leaving Sg since money is tight and I rarely am on here except to keep my lovely BCB group going. I love you guys. But this is just a thought in my head nothing set in stone about leaving just yet. I do know I have thrown out all ideas of being an SG or PSW model out the window for it just isn't me anymore. I have found my comfort in the greater things life has given to me lately.
Have a great week everyone I will try to do better to keep in touch. I think I may try to read at least one journal a day and comment. But we all know how that can go.
>^..^<
Peace n chicken grease
Today I am home sick took my first full sick day in months. I have been at my job a year as of this week so its also my first payed sick day. I was supposed to be getting a raise but that has yet to happen. Why is it that good hard workers get shit on and ppl who should not be in certain fields get the red carpet treatment. I am done going above and beyond and not getting anything but shit on.
So my day off consisted of sleeping in weehoo its been months since I have been able to do this even on weekends. I have been packing somethings here n there. Watching some TV which I rarely do unless its a movie.
lil updates in my life: I am in a great relationship if you didn;t already know that. We have been dating for almost 2 months and things couldn't be better. Its so weird when you meet someone and just click on all the levels that matter. Not having to comproise issues that are really important to you. Like family. At the same time its hard to not stop and wonder do I deserve this? Don't mess it up don't be someone your not, wait I am being myself and its great. huh.... How is it that I have gone years and years feeling like I was living someone elses life. forced to play a role that wasn't me just to think I was living life when really I was dead. I am so happy and in love it really makes me look at everything differently especially my past. I am a little scared but I think now I know its human.
I am working on getting my house straight and ready to sell this is one of the toughest things I have had to do. Alot of work needs to be done and I am only one person. I am also trying to take it so as to not over do it. Between being so happy and work stressing me the last thing I wanna do it have my house stress me out too.
My plan is once Brian's house is built which there is no time limit but we are both thinking around May. then I will be moving up there with him. In the country, no one to bother me. Just the beautiful outdoors. We also are both hoping that our divorces will be final by then. Mine which has taken almost 2 years because my husband is a lazy bum and just taking his sweet time although he is already married. long story there though. And brian and his X are and should be getting the divorce in May. So we are waiting to move in and all till that is done to save from any problems on his end.
I just am an impatient person and time is always something that eats me up. Luckly it is flying by pretty fast. I mean I know you all know when you meet someone and feel remotely how I do you feel as though you have known that person forever and its hard to think of how things were before they came along and really who would want to right. I am not even sure where I am going with all of this ramblings n such.
I think being as it is 2 something here in the afternoon I will shower and begin my day. I know I haven't been keeping up with many ppl or there journals or the groups. And I am sorry but I am thinking about leaving Sg since money is tight and I rarely am on here except to keep my lovely BCB group going. I love you guys. But this is just a thought in my head nothing set in stone about leaving just yet. I do know I have thrown out all ideas of being an SG or PSW model out the window for it just isn't me anymore. I have found my comfort in the greater things life has given to me lately.
Have a great week everyone I will try to do better to keep in touch. I think I may try to read at least one journal a day and comment. But we all know how that can go.
>^..^<
Peace n chicken grease
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purplesiamese:
thank you!
sckitzo:
Thanks for the comments hun
