elvis

damn damn damn. I am way to freakn happy. Head over feet. I have met someone I Quite possibly almost certainly have been waiting for my entire life. yes its so soon. i know how u all think. i tryed to fight it. Hell why should i. Its the best feeling in the world . The stupid giggles the damn distraction when I am supposed to have my head else where. the smell of him on my clothes when he is gone. I am scared I admit but giving in feels so wicked nice. I dunno really what to do with myself how to act but I feel so free and good more so than I have in years. The best is when you feel this way and it is returned to you 10 fold. I am looking at life totally different. I had asked my best friend RIP (only man I had ever truely loved) to help me in some way send me someone help me find peace etc. I think someone was listening. Because there he was BAM outta no where and now I am Cooked. Done . hopeless no more but helpless in his arms. Butterfly and fireworks the whole thing tickles me to even think about it. I know many people can't possibly understand and really neither can I. Missing him as I am writting this arg its so silly all of it. I was ready to assume that love wasn't for me or at least not anytime soon. I was sure that I needed to be alone and maybe change my goals find a new path since the one I have dreamed of for so long was a failure so many times. Then I woke up and realized I just had never found the one who I was supposed to share this path with. It wasn't me. I shouldn't change. My goals and values are the biggest part of me. It is who I am and who I wanna be. I feel so brave. Unlost. Saved. Resuced. Anything is possible. I want to look at this as an adventure a journey through life instead of a possible cliff again. Not going to push the envelope, just going to go with the flow but at the same time I am not going to dein my feelings ever again. I am in love. Whether its fast or slow its the truth I accept it and open it with loving arms. I feel like the luckest person in the world. I feel beautiful when I am with him even when I am not i know he is there. With no words said he hears my thoughts. DAMN damn damn I have fallen

hahahaha I am such a DORK. Anyways sorry I haven't been around much these past weeks. I am sooo busy with the house getting it clean to sell and Well I just was diagnosed with Strep guess thats what I get for kissing a boy with toncelitus.. I can't help it he kisses me like tomorrow is the end of the world *le sigh*


HAVE A GREAT FANTABLOUS WEEKEND *huggles* New set in the works for this weekend. and possibly an outdoor one this month