elvez666

I sit down for my first session on my foo dogs in 2 hours. Kinda really nervous. They are freaking huge. They take up both of my upper arms. Hopefully I'll make it through at least outline and shading tonight. It has been 3 weeks since the breakup. I was minding my own business last night trying not to think about her or at least...
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ok. I'm drunk, and in need of sleep. This rollercoaster keeps me slamming my eyes closed and i guess from wrething. I dont like my life and i think i need a hugr change. On the other hand, everything that i lay down on tape is some of the best shit i have ever heard. i'm not tooting my horn. I hate everything i've ever...
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Its weird they way emotions come in overpowering waves. One second I feel nothing but love. 5 minutes later I am the lonliest most depressed dude this side of a penniless bill gates. I like tattoos they make me so giddy. 3 so far this year and probably at least 3 more this month. I'm going to run out of skin before i turn 32.

Two people actually knew what my new tatt was. So out of 500,000 musicians in this hole two have some theory training and or at least know how to read somewhat. Uh, could you write that in tabs for me... i don't know how to read music. I hate posers.

I'm ok with things for the time. Sure I am now friends with the woman I would have no problem marrying.




i'm trying to move on. It's really hard for someone of my age who is self imployed. I cant have an office fling. The only girls i see on a regular basis work at home depot. Nuff said. New tattoo Being posted now. If...
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Three days and getting better. I'm more sorry for her than me now. I gave her the world and she didn't want it. I have stopped trying. If she wants it back I dont think I can give it. That is a good thing! I am ready to just date. At worst I might make some more friends. I realized that I cant always think......
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So I think I am doing better. I was in communicato with her today. Its hard but done. I think I fractured my arm riding today. You know when you touch it it makes you want to puke. I'm so tired of lying to people that ask me if i'm ok. I just don't think they want to hear the truth. So sick and tired...
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So yesterday was the bars second anniversary. Huge party. So I called the girl to see if she would go with me. She told me friends don't date. I really just wanted an excuse to see her. Maybe a chance to sneak a little kiss. Stupid me asks if its ever going to be like it was. Flat out cold "NO!" So she didn't show...
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I went down to S.A. yesterday for the sounds from the underground tour. It was like 100 degrees or some shit. Lucky I know the bus driver for bohemoth so I spent most of the day sitting backstage guzzling gatorade. Most of the day I didn't think about her. That was until Gwar started and all I could think is how much she would love...
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so we were supposed to sit down and talk yesterday. Hey guess what she never called me back. Can you say chicken shit. I texted her this morning as not to wake her up. I guess maybe we just will never talk again. I'm not ok with that. So when I'm depressed I buy things i really dont need. like my new set of calphalon...
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Three weeks ago I was on top of the world. The city had approved all my new plans for new construction. I was actually catching up to my scheduled deadlines. I found the love of my life. I was losing weight. I didn't want to drink anymore so I didn't. Now everything lays around me broken bleeding or dead. My girl is losing her shit....
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no i'm not dead. just tired. The new girl hasn't let me sleep in weeks. I'm not complaining but I'm getting too old to never sleep. Got my other arm finished. Working on some fu dogs for my chest. Its going to be my doggy though. how cute. i need a beer!