Monday Mar 29, 2004

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I have so much studying/homework to do this week and I, of course, do not want to mad .

I hate being confused about things, not like facts and figures or anything like that, but about who I am and what I want. I mean, I just don't know where I fit in. Does anybody else have this problem? I don't even really know what I mean. It's espcecially hard for me to "be me" because of my family. At school I can be whoever I want, but at home I have to be who they want me to be, so I can't even really be who I want to be because who I want to be doesn't have blonde hair and has some tattoos and says what she really thinks instead of what they want her to think just to keep the peace! And the transition to get from this other person to what i want to be is so hard and so confusing that I get lost and don't even really know who I REALLY AM mad

Anyway, sorry about that. ok I'm going to try to find food and then try to study and do homework.
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causus:
I'm having loads of fun doing what I do. The money isn't that bad either. wink So you're not happy with the keys to the universe huh? That's cool. It can be daunting at times. I'm not implying that you don't get it or anything. smile
glorybox:
I have a ton of work too, midterms this week... but spring break starts on friday, im sooo excited.

I kind of know what you mean, my family generally doesnt care about my tattoos or hair... but they definitly wouldnt accept the fact that i am applying to be a SG. I have not told them and i do not think i will. I mean, personally i feel that it is not their business. I wish that my mom would be a bit more accepting about that. Oh well.

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