elvesmischief

You know what sucks about friends. OK I'll tell you if you don't know already. You have a friend, you guys can tell each other everything (or so you thought) then you have a problem regarding something that you had never really confided in them, you guys are pretty damn close, so you go ahead and then whamo friendship ends please call never again. You didn't think it was going to affect your relationship with this so called friend, but alas, friend no more. Or there's the drug/alcohol friend and if you're not into any or even as much drugs/alcohol as this friend, whamo again no more friend, unless they need something.Sometimes you might get a pity i/m or phone call from the afore mentioned friend but that's about it. So then after these friends (one of which was life long , like i'm talking baptised together), you tend not to confide in your other friends, esp. new ones that you meet. Then when you do have another one of these personal problems much along the same lines as you lost the first friend, you shut it up inside and don't mention it to anybody, then one day booooom you up and explode. Why Why WHY in this day and age are people so not accepting of other's beliefs, sexuality, likes/dislikes, stuff that doesn't even involve them , that they can not stay friends with a person!!!!!!!! completely shunning the people that are not the "same" as them, GOD FRIENDS BLOW ASS! I have one real friend now who knows everything about me, and then some he's the only person I can tell anything to and not be worried, it's my fiance...but even he can't listen to all my thoughts and problems, because it's him and some stuff he just can't have an unbiased opinion on ya know! Geeze. I do have this really great friend, she's like my best friend in the whole world (outside of draper of course) but some stuff i'm just too afraid to say / tell her because i'm afraid of loosing her,... isn't that awful?
OH.....classes are going well, the calc and physics homeworks a bitch though.