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Wednesday Nov 19, 2003

Nov 19, 2003
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Lost my pixie boy frown
so, it's over.
My heart feels like it's been wrenched from my body and contorted in front of my very eyes. I've hurt him and now he's being really bitter. although i guess i can't blame him.
I think he feels like i've just be stringing him along, but truley i think in my heart i did want to get back with him. Hell i wanted to marry him i still do frown just not now. I'm too young and i need to live my life. Gonna save every penny i have and that's it i'm off. Wether to uni or Vegas! wink
I really love him, so much. I didn't want to loose him as a friend. But i guess we can't be friends now.
I can't really see the keyboard for the welled up tears in my eyes.
These past few weeks i've been fighting with the conflict that even though i love him truly and want to be with him in the end. I just don't want or need it right now. I can't deal with the fact that he cries everytime we meet up for a coffee. That's exactly what i don't need in my life right now, and that's why i don't want a relationship. For once i feel young again. i Can do anything i want, because i can!
I do love him, he's my best friend frown
well i guess not anymore.....

i feel like shit....gonna take a shower
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
badjon:
Very sorry to hear that. Feel better soon.
Nov 23, 2003
badjon:
Glad to hear you're ok! smile
Yeah burfday was great (what I can remember), I feel bad I didn't invite you out, im a complete scatterbrain, I really am, duh!
When you walk past the big dawsons see all those people buying stuff? They're my bloody customers! All I seem to do since that place opened is sell plectrums, oh well, more time to play with guitars I suppose smile I will probably end up working there anyway if business continues the way it is....
Are you still at gadget? Selena said she saw you there a while ago, is it still crap, or has it got any better? I haven't been in the Arndale for 6 months or something, I almost (but not quite) miss it.
Stay happy!!!!
Nov 24, 2003

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