elu

i really hate my job so much, but if i left chances are id hate the new job even more and probably (meaning most likely) i wouldnt be getting paid as much. so what to do what to do.....

i got promoted to manager at a high volume cafe. a lot of people will say hey yea thats great do yer thing girl... but its sucking my life away. i hate kissing ass and never was too good at the whole "service with a smile" thing, especially when i have to cater to rich kid brats using mommy and daddy's credit cards. sometimes i want to throw my apron to the ground and just slap one of these bitches in the face. i am so tired of not being able to voice my opinion and i guess i sorta feel like im losing myself. the old elu would have slapped the new elu in the face by now. i used to be so rebellious in thinking that i really didnt need money, but i do need money!! badly!!

not to mention that i have to take out all of my facial peircings before clocking in for my shift. thats something in itself that makes me hate the job more. I dont feel like myself anymore and the possibility of getting new facial peircings is slim, as not many places round here will just peirce any old thing with a retainer.

suggestions anyone???