elsie_caruso

The fear of leaving everything and hitting the road, driving for days and starting over, no idea what job or place to live i will have is making me so scared. My stomach is in knots. It's 12 weeks away. I don't think you can even apply for a job or find an apartment this far in advance. I have been trying. I know its hard to find work in Portland but I really hope I am one of the ones that gets it! I need this so badly. I want a change. I can't worry about if I could fail, I just have to think about how its just not an option! Getting a job here isn't easy either I know so many people who can't find jobs. But I feel like I am just too determined to not get one. And hopefully that's what I need to succeed.