elphie

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"Update and edit your journal"

That's what it says....

*blinks*

I don't have much to say... or well I do but I can't say any of it... but I suppose I shoudl start with an apology to the people who deal with me on a daily basis...

I'm sorry I've been such an emtional goober lately.

I'm sorry I haven't listened to any of your problems.

I'm sorry it seems like I've been avoiding some of you.

I'm sorry I've been such a bitch and so damn far away mentaly.

So yeah... there are the apologies.

I'm not sayin' things are better.. there not... I'm just saying sorry because I'm sure there are better ways to handle my problems then how I am doing it. I just don't know those ways... and I don't think too highly of myself to consider my well being to be worth the chance effort of changing my ways.

I'm not sure if that made sense or not.

I have realized one thing though... for those of you who have been worried.

While I am having problems with other people... the biggest person I'm having issues with is myself... I'm not fond of who I am to me... I like what I do for other people... but I don't like who I am or where I am...

Once again I'm speaking gibberish so I'm gunna shut my hole now and go back to my writing.