I feel numb today. There isn't any other way to put it. I've gone thorugh all the hurt shit and tears, and its still there but it just tickles a little in a rather unplesant way. I think that makes me even more sad... but I'm not really sure. I miss.. well I miss things... people... stuff.. I dunno.
I miss being 17... *smiles* Senior year of highschool that's what I miss... crazy isn't it? I guess everyone has that year where everything works for them. Or at least most of a year.
Things clicked, things worked... but I'm not that person anymore... I'm not even sure sometimes if I'm the same person I was a week ago... or even yesterday.
So there it is... I feel numb.. empty, but numb.. very cold, distant and extremly lonely.
So whatever it is I've lost that made me who I was and who I want to be to others... I miss you come back to me, cause I can't find you.
I miss being 17... *smiles* Senior year of highschool that's what I miss... crazy isn't it? I guess everyone has that year where everything works for them. Or at least most of a year.
Things clicked, things worked... but I'm not that person anymore... I'm not even sure sometimes if I'm the same person I was a week ago... or even yesterday.
So there it is... I feel numb.. empty, but numb.. very cold, distant and extremly lonely.
So whatever it is I've lost that made me who I was and who I want to be to others... I miss you come back to me, cause I can't find you.
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you're not the same person, not as you were in senior year, not that you were a minute ago, every little moment of life changes you. that doesn't have to be a bad thing though.
what you've lost, that's tougher. with me, when i've lost that thing, it's not a part of me, it's a part of someone else i'm missing. one person, one comment, can make me smile all day, and if you're lucky, you get that same person, and equally awesome comments every day. doesn't have to be a guy, or a girl, just a friend will do it. the parts of you that you think you've lost, i'm sire they're still there, they're just harded to see when you're down, you just need the right perspective to see them.
hope that helps, and as you said they help have some