elora

It's funny how things can change so quickly..

one second my world feels like its crumbling down around me and in the blink of an eye everything seems to be better then ever..

Thursday is my 5 year anniversary with the boy.. as of sunday.. it almost wasn't. Sometimes it takes a drastic move to open someones eyes and i'm stoked (and relieved) that everything has worked out.

Sure every couple has some arguments here and there.. and we're no different... but lately (if anyone actually reads my blogs could tell) my guys drinking has been putting a rift in our relationship.

Lately it's all he's been doing.. which i don't really have a problem with him drinking per say.. more the treatment i receive while he's drunk. Now don't get me wrong.. i'm not being physically abused or anything.. If that was the case i would have up and left a long time ago..

it's more that i feel like i have been taken for granted... and not well important in his life anymore..

so sunday night i confronted him about it..

we talked (or i mostly talked) and he sort of sat there.. I was unaware that he had drank as much as he did (he wasn't home all night).. so the lack of involvement in the conversation really started to scare me..

What it came down to was that i told him that i couldn't keep giving my all and not getting anything in return and i gave him his ring back (promise ring!) I then sobbed uncontrollably for the next 12 hours.

After talking to two of my closest friends over the course of the day i eventually felt better. My friend, and roomate, Justine told me that after speaking with my boyfriend that day it was obvious that he was upset and the situation at hand.. (which i was scared he wasn't concerned at all)

I came home from what was possible the worst day of work ever.. expecting to have a very awkward evening.. upon entering my house my guy asked if i wanted to go upstairs and talk..

so i went up to my room to find a table set up with Chinese takeout and Unwritten Law playing on the stereo.. i broke out in tears not really expecting anything like this.. I then got a heart felt apology.. and i know just cause someone says they are sorry isn't a reason to go running back..

we had a long talk.. and discussed everything that was on our minds..We promised each other to try 100% to work out our problems.. all of which i believe can be fixed with compromise and effort on both our parts..

He gave me my ring back and told me he loved me and that the past 5 years have zoomed by and was stoked to spend the next 5 years together..

i started to cry again, but this time at least they were tears of joy