eloiine

Why is it so hard to forgive??
I'm scared to turn bitter...
Someone told me:
"Everyone has hurts, it's not a reason to hate someone"
But if everyone has hurts, why did they not care to hurt me? Why weren't they there to protect me? why did they only thought about their own interest and why did they not treat me like a human beiing?And Why did they felt jealousy while i was depressive and in detress?

All the people that i loved in my life disapointed and hurted me so much that now i still don't know how to move on and forgive.
I don't want to become bitter!! i fight against it everyday..but i'm scared it's already too late.
I gave up on everyone, i don't have friends, no social life, no familly and i just hate almost everybody now
And it makes me cry so much, i wish i didn't turned this way