ok, so I know I should be happy to even HAVE a job right now in this economy. But is having a job that makes me sick to my stomach with stress, gives me panic attacks, and keeps me up at night REALLY worth it?
Is it worth it to literally sit at my desk and bawl my eyes out at least once a week?
No one seems to understand what I'm going through. Whenever I complain about my job people tell me I should be grateful to even have one. I am grateful...I guess...but this is literally becoming a psychological health issue for me.
I can't quit, because there's no way I could afford to pay my bills and my boyfriend and I are pretty much relying on my income right now to pay our rent. I've been applying to places EVERY DAY for the past 8 months and no one will even give me an interview. I'm super qualified and I have a Bachelor's degree, but no one cares.
today I got yelled at because my boss, who is a lazy fucking piece of shit, told me that I wrote a blog for him and made him "look bad." First of all his business is horribly immoral so I don't agree with what he's doing in the first place, but I put those feelings aside because the work-place is no place for personal discrepancies. Anyways I wrote a blog that said "...you will make millions!" and he emailed me saying "I am praying to god you didn't publish that blog like that. You should've said 'Millions of Dollars' I can't believe you'd be that stupid."
It's words like these (stupid, looking bad, idiotic, moron, etc.) that I hear and am called all the time. I've never EVER had an employer disrespect me like this and I've always put 110% into every job I've done.
I can't take this anymore and I don't know what to do.
Is it worth it to literally sit at my desk and bawl my eyes out at least once a week?
No one seems to understand what I'm going through. Whenever I complain about my job people tell me I should be grateful to even have one. I am grateful...I guess...but this is literally becoming a psychological health issue for me.
I can't quit, because there's no way I could afford to pay my bills and my boyfriend and I are pretty much relying on my income right now to pay our rent. I've been applying to places EVERY DAY for the past 8 months and no one will even give me an interview. I'm super qualified and I have a Bachelor's degree, but no one cares.
today I got yelled at because my boss, who is a lazy fucking piece of shit, told me that I wrote a blog for him and made him "look bad." First of all his business is horribly immoral so I don't agree with what he's doing in the first place, but I put those feelings aside because the work-place is no place for personal discrepancies. Anyways I wrote a blog that said "...you will make millions!" and he emailed me saying "I am praying to god you didn't publish that blog like that. You should've said 'Millions of Dollars' I can't believe you'd be that stupid."
It's words like these (stupid, looking bad, idiotic, moron, etc.) that I hear and am called all the time. I've never EVER had an employer disrespect me like this and I've always put 110% into every job I've done.
I can't take this anymore and I don't know what to do.
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harshrocker:
That sucks. Time to start looking for something new.
fishinfool:
i have to say its time for a new job. you will be able to find a new one. hopefully one that doesnt cause you so much pain