ellyshia

I fucking hate myself.

I hate my life. I hate who I am, and I hate how I can never do anything right.

yesterday I was called by one of the managers at the place i work asking if I could work from 1-3 today, I need the extra cash so I agreed. When I got there, there were 5 managers there and they called me into a back room. They pretty much told me that my hair was unnacceptable and unsanitary. They told me I could not come back to work until I had "disposed of it."

I had been told beforehand that if I had my hair covered it would not be a problem, so, I took it upon myself to find a pair of black stockings and cut them to fit as a hairnet covering up all of my dreads. Now they are telling me that my little whispies of blue hair on the side are showing and they can see through the stocking so I am breaking the rules. I'm so fed up with everything. I can't stop crying and I just hate myself. I need the money so bad and I can't afford to miss work, I can't pay my bills this month and my health insurance is running out next month so I'm so stressed. I just hate my life. Not to mention they cut my pay 50 cents without telling me so now I can't even afford to pay my bills working the hours I was before. I don't even know if that's legal, and I don't know if it was legal for them to call me into work and then not let me work and instead just take me in a back room and verbally beat me down until I was bawling.



I'm sorry, I just really hate who I am right now.



maybe if I'm lucky I'll get hit by a car today and spare everyone that I work with the annoyance of me being alive.




SG is about the only place I feel accepted and cared about