elleseven

um, i feel like my life is out of my control. this is not a good thing, obviously. i have been sleeping way too much (like 12 hours a night) and partying too much as well. my last journal entry gave an idea of how crazy i can get, and well, this whole last week or two have been almost as nutso as that night of karaoke.

i really need to do something. like perhaps, add a little structure to my life. so much has happened to me emotionally that i feel like i cannot control anything. but you know, just writing those words down make me feel shameful about how i have been behaving. i am the only person who can control my life. there may be outside variables, but i am the one who has to deal with those. i suppose i have just not been doing that properly. or sanely.

cheers to more self control, eh??



i need to be a pirate, not a hostage