ellenelle

F**K YOU GET OUT AND LIVE

I'm consumed with ENNUI. I can't get myself to go out of the house and buy groceries. For some reason, this grocery-buying thing has become an insurmountable obstacle for the past couple of days. I easily jump out of bed and get ready for school and attend classes, but when it comes to taking 1/2 an hour to purchase sustenance, I balk and grouse and find it impossible. The real irony here is that I will actually go FURTHER and go through MORE TROUBLE in order to buy some kind of fast food.

I've decided that in addition to the ten billion pounds of electronics I've been buying lately, I really need a digital camera. I actually regret not being able to document my college life in any detail; every picture taken of me and the events I was involved in is locked up in someone else's harddrive.

I've ALSO decided to try and quit smoking again. I was going to exercise today, because that generally helps me, but I went to bed at 3 last night and just couldn't get up in time this morning. So yeah, I'm reducing down to 4 cigarettes a day for the rest of the week, and then reduce to 3 next Monday, etc. etc. etc. until I'm down to none.

Oh yeah.

I also need a job.