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it's just shit after shit on this end. You know I have a friend that does tarot cards and she told me this year was going to be really challenging. I wasn't surprised, but it has already started.

Angelo just got our new Mazda in an accident. He was rear ended. the bumper came off which isn't a big deal, but the woman also hit the back tire which is crooked right now.

So that leaves us with one vehicle, the fucking gas guzzling ford ranger his dad gave him. I hate that truck.

My eclipse got towed from his friends apartment and since Angelo didn't want to take out a loan to get it back (the cost was $2200) the people can keep it now and will sell it. The car had hundreds of dollars of clothes I bought in NYC and my makeup case. Girl I was so upset I cried all the way from Augusta to Columbia. I was such a wreck I took my ativan and slept in the backseat all night in fucking Columbia South Carolina when I left the strip club.

If Alana wasn't in school I'd take my ass back to NY for a few weeks were I know I could get the money. I'm just lost right now. Pizza Hut and Taco Bell up the street are hiring so I'll go there tomorrow and try to work.

There is a Cafe Erotica not far from the house he keeps arguing with me to work there so I can get the permit money. I think he doesnt want to just give it to me, I guess he wants me to earn it. Now is not the time for those fucking games. I don't want to beg hillbilly muthafuckas for a lap dance. He could get the $300 so I could go to Atlanta and work 7 days a fucking week if I needed to I'm tired right now I'll holla at ya later. Stay up.