ellebelle

ME


I am not the person who is singing
I am the silent one inside
I am not the one who laughs at people's jokes I just pacify their egos
I am not my house, my car, my songs
They are only just stops along my way
I am like the winter
I'm a dark cold female
With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave


And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythmn
I am carrying my prayers
But you can't kill my spirit
It's soaring and it's strong
Like a mountain
I'll go on and on
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground



And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
That I love

I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better
Yes I know there's something better
Yes I know, yes i know, yes i know

That I love
But it's me
And it's me
But it's me
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The baby chicks are doing well. My blue chicky is still so blue. I love her.

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I am wondering around the house cleaning crap up- wondering why I haven't taken my meds. Oh I remember- I can not stand this self induced coma my shrink seems to want me to be in for the next few weeks. Shit- I guess I better look for em. *shrugs* At least when I sleep= I sleep to dream. Good dreams lately too. Oh hell yeah.



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Such a Paula Cole mood today. I am totally dancing all around the house n singing infront of my mirrors with whatever fake mic I can rustle up as my prop and the whole house is my makeshift stage.

More Paula......So fucking sexy. SEX BOMB! O~ <~ see the fuze?????????????????????????????????????????



F*ing SEXXXXXXXXX dream. Wheres my meds? I'll be Paula in the wet t- you can be the sexy next door neighbor......




Love, love,

You make me feel like a sticky pistil...
leaning into a stamen
You make me feel like a mister sunshine...
Himself
You make me feel like splendor in the grass...
While we're rollin'
Dance with me baby
You make me feel like the Amazon's runnin' between...
my thighs

CHORUS:

You make me feel love, love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love, love
You make me feel love, love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love

You make me feel like a candy apple
All red and horney
You make me feel like I wanna be a dumb blonde
In a centerfold, the girl next door
And I would open the door and...
I'd be all wet
With my tits soaking through this tiny little t-shirt...
That I'm wearing
And you would open the door and tie...
Me up to the bed

Chorus

Lover, I don't know who I am OOohhh
Am I Barry White? Am I hot inside? Ohhh...
Lover, I'm laced with your unconscious
Oh baby babe babe baby
I will be your Desdemona ahhhhh...

Take your time

You make me feel Ahaa
You make me feel WooWoo baby
You make me feel Ahaa mmm
You make me feel loved