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It's not too bad once you get used to it. There are a lot of changes. Give it a few weeks. Hope you are well.

It doesn't kinda suck, but after a while you'll be used to it.

its all good baybee.

and no.. its got a big funky rainbow heart on it... Well, there's a new one that doesn't have that.. but I have the printing before the most recent... thinnish older white haired lady. Really good book.

Well, I'm really working at the whole peace, love, granola bit Really I just care about the peace and love bit. Somedays I want to kick granola in its ass. hehe

I'll have to catch you on the next run around.. I plan to be out again in approximately a month, if you're interested.

That's pretty much how my uncle described the feeling when he took adderall - clarity. Everything that had been swirling around in his life became focused. He and my mom are the same way, although my mom's behavior didn't really indicate it much until the last several years, especially after she retired a couple of years ago. She's always battled depression, too. I tend to see my home as cluttered and I only complete sections of housecleaning or projects. I usually can stay focused at work, but this latest project just left me feeling overwhelmed and unable to collect my thoughts coherently. I have not taken any kind of test for it.

Oh, it's my best friend who is getting her masters, not me. I neve finished college. Again, I got to thinking about why and it might be an attention disorder thing. I was usually more interested in the behavior of the instructor and class than the actual subject. The various personalities and interactions between people always drew me away from the topic.

my condolences about your great-grandma

(((hug)))

Wow...great gramma. Sorry about your loss. But the time does come. My grampa's been wanting his time to come for the last few years - once he started having a lot of trouble getting around. And now he's bedridden, except when the attendants get him into a wheelchair for a bit.

I have no idea about Mary's mole. You'd have to ask her.

I don't think you mentioned that you were trying to get a carpenter job. Good luck! McMenamin's might be fun. The people who work there usually seem to be pretty cool, although I haven't been to that one.

I don't consider gaming to be "busy" time. But yeah, I know what you mean. I usually eat while I'm on SG. If I can get through it by 9 or 10pm, I'll game for a couple of hours. (I was on vacation at the beginning of April, too, so I got over 40 hours of Oblivion in in one week.)

Oh, and I forgot to respond to your previous jounal because I had gaming to do. So,

1) I think so. Isn't it that self-contained, self-sustaining living environment thing. Is it in a desert area somewhere?
2) That's a tough one. The first person who comes to mind is a guy friend P. He's a hoot. Probably my best friend K. She's interesting, funny, and a walking encyclopedia, plus a great cook. Hmmm... thinking of the group and personality dynamics involved, I think I'd pick my friend L (formerly galaxyexplorer). I think the four of us would get along pretty well. And boinking L would be a definite possibility.
3) Like you said, mix cds would be ideal, especially if they were mp3 cds with tons of songs on them. Of regular cds, The Verve Pipe (self-titled), Grant Lee Buffalo - Mighty Joe Moon, Duncan Sheik - Humming, Mark Lanegan - Field Songs, Radiohead - Amnesiac, James Angell - Private Player, The New Pornographers - Electric Version, The Verve Pipe - Villains, Jennifer Terran - The Musician, Radiohead - Kid A. And some of those might be different if you ask me tomorrow.
4) I'd like to bring a cat. If I can't bring a cat, then maybe my synth or maybe several books that I own or a couple decks of cards and Hoyle's rules of games.

Time to clean out that cam memory and get some bustier pics POSTED!!!

What are ya waiting for????



*patience*

i want to say

"wow you are crazy!!!"
and mean it in a really good way but you kind of are, so i should say something like wow youre incredible !!!

my site has been taken hostage.
i should send your daughter a picture, can you send me a picture of her and i will make a cartoon of her.

jeannette winterson makes me cream my panties.

she is sooo awsome i wish i could live in her books, people meet so easily in there

"what are you doing here"
"i came looking for you"
and after two days in bed i realised i hadnt asked her her name.

things like that always happen in her books

you have to read them!!!

written on the body is my favorite but sexing the cherry is good too, and passion.
passion was too short i wish it was 3xs as long.

friends with benefits?

i dont know.
i guess in some instances it could work,
like i wish i had a shopping buddy girl friend who got excited about shoes the way i do, and we'd go shopping toghether, and since shoes make me hott it would be nice after a day of shopping to make out.

so in that case i wouldnt mind a friend like that with benefits.



you know you are the first person to ever talk to me on here???

keep me updated on your craziness!!!

I'd give them "How to Serve Man", "The Day the Earth Stood Still" and "Ender's Game".

And I'd feed them Jalepeno Jelly beans. Billions of them!

Oh, and I'm not sure what she was, aside from the borderline personality thing that she mentioned. She usually started out with apologies, but those usually degenerated into venom and curses. I think she just had too many underlying things going on inside of her and the slightest thing could set her off. Sometimes, it seemed like she wanted an excuse to explode about something.

If they are just looking for reading material, I'd give them Einstein's Monsters by Martin Amis, Obsession by A. S. Byatt, and A Cruel Madness by Colin Thubrin. If they are interested in learning about us, the book on World Religions, a book on World History, and the Idiot's Guide to Human Beings.

I hope things are balanced out now. I went out with a girl once several years ago. I spent the better part of the next year dealing with her borderline personality disorder and corresponding cocktail of assorted prescribed meds manifesting in hysterical phone calls, hang-up calls, messages spewing bile, and other things. She could be a sweetheart or she could channel the devil, usually within the span of a few minutes. She had finally balanced out to some extent, gotten married to what she said was a really sweet guy, and seemed fairly happy the last time we corresponded.

Thanks for the add.

hmm what an interesting question...I'll have to think about that. But one of my fav books 'The Bitch In the House' would be on the list.

Hope your time away did something positive for you

I ended up in one of those wards a few years back after taking a bottle of naproxen and cutting my wrists (nothing bad, it hurt to much for me to go very deep. sigh )
I only spent a weekend. I was surrounded by people with real personal or tramatic problems...and I was basically bored and had wayyy to much time on my hands I guess in addition to the depression.

I've been getting out a little more thankfully. Need to go fill out some more job applications.

I'm in a serious relationship with my daughter's dad. We broke up but got back together to see how things work out this time around. IT's going okay, but I'm scared that in the future I won't be very content. We don;t want to live in the same cities,hardly like the same activites, it's very strange how we stay together.

He's a great guy despite his fidelity issues.

We don't seem to have very much in common, except being head over heels in love with each other since 2001.

I tell people I'm bi, but prefer women to men most definitely. I don't ever plan on being with another guy after my current beau. Honestly I feel like a open-mided lesbian who fell in love with a guy. Boy I bet writing that somewhere else would get me flamed.

My love/desire for women is just too strong for me to deny. He's pretty insecure about it- but I don't bring it up.

So, I had written a fairly long response to your comment earlier and my fucking browser locked up. Grrr...

Anyway, after reading your comment, I assumed you had consumed a lot of coffee sometime earlier. Now that I've read your journal and profile, I'm guessing you are like this all of the time and twice on Sunday. I think I can see where it might take something extra to get you down for sleeping. I feel exhausted just reading you. And it's obvious you can rage like it's no one's business.

Yeah, I get the dreaded 'you must log in' message thingy on SG once in a while in the middle of something, but not lately. Never saw Ghost World. I don't think I've heard Holiday in Spain. But I don't have their last cd if that's what it is from. Anna Nalick does Breathe. Really well-written song and her voice gives it such a great delivery. I've heard it on KINK many times and probably 105, too. I can usually appreciate really good songwriting, so yeah, I like Duncan Sheik. My tastes are fairly broad, but it's usually certain artists who grab me. Speaking of which, check out Jennifer Terran. Bill Ricchini is another I like (Close the Door and Angela, especially), in the vein of Elliott Smith.

My parents have a couple of old wine barrels for decorating their yard and get tadpoles every year. But theirs all seem to grow up to be tree frogs.

Have a great holiday weekend.

I could imagine the look on his face when you said that- lol. I have a daughter also and as much as I love her, she has her moments.

I wish I had AJ's lips myself. Hers are a very sexy shape not to mention that 'crevice'in the middle of the bottom lip that is super rare I've heard.

I can't tell you how many times I've been put on meds but they never seem to work because I always forget to take them. thankfully for some reason I don't get as depressed as much as I used to.

I think I need some anxiety pills because I am afraid to go places by myself. I recently moved to a new city, I haven't been to the movies, to the mall , nada.

Only place is to the supermarket and thats only early in the morning or late at night when there aren;t that much people. This is very strange. I think I'm going to need a shrink myself.

crap I'm gonna stop now

One band of ninjas were dressed in black spandex running clothes and masks, which lead me to believe that they were members of the track team. That was the group that was shot a rocket at me.

The other band were both wearing grey and white patterned kimonos, which made since given that the ambushed me in Alaska during winter. I was supposed to fight a duel, but instead the man I was fighting attacked from ambush with a friend.

oh well- I tried to add them my damn self- but they wouldn't upload for moi.

Sweden's old Profile

I get to see her all the time but I wish she were on SG again. I think she should submit pics and try to be an SG. She's totally adorable.