The UK are in their second lockdown of 2020, most of the first one i spent moping around feeling unmotivated and locked away from the world
I ended up moving home due to my serve depression, from a 2 bedroom 1 bathroom, to a 4 bedroom 4 bathroom house! It didn't cure my depression obviously but I am so much better now I am out the bad environment & I'm also a lot closer to 90% of my family, I'd spent 8 years away from them and it was driving me insane. Even though moving closer to them has again made me feel so much better, I am still unable to actually socialise with them!
My two eldest are back at school now, so it gives me more time to myself, I wasn't really using it to my best abilities really. A lot of you know I've been a youtuber for a couple of years and although it's great, I just stopped feeling it. I felt I was more 'watched' than appreciated, alot of my content was lingerie hauls so obviously the audience was there to enjoy themselves rather than interact with me, which I didn't like. I love having a connection with my fans & followers, as most models will tell you, we do actually enjoy talking to you guys and making friends! Anyways, I stopped YouTube for awhile (covid didn't help as so many companies stopped sending parcels to the UK) And I got a lot of abuse behind the scenes from "fans" I got a lot of shit for stopping something, I wasn't even being paid for.. like seriously š
I moved onto twitch, which I've found really enjoyable! I've only been doing it for 2 months but already I've made a little community, and as a bonus I've made a little cash too! It's awesome being able to sit for a couple of hours and chat away about random shit with a few people š I've been watching streamers for years and don't know why I didn't start it sooner!!
I stream daily 1pm-3pm & 8pm onwards (UK Time) if anyone wants to come by and have a chat and some laughs!
