elixa

Ok, so I out up the wrong French Quote and scared a few folks..... woops.

So i totally lost it earlier this week. My sigoth (well, for the most part he is anyway) and i work in the same office. he was just promoted ahead of me when I am better educated, more deserving, and have been here longer. I also perform better and have consistantly gotten better reviews.
I was livid. I felt betrayed by my boss and I felt betrayed by him.
I have been working 2 jobs to make ends meet and he knew I wanted to advance there. But it was offered only to him, and what could he do? Turn down the money we need? Of course not. I can calmly see that now. (and it isnt that big a promotion or raise.... but anyway)

So I confronted my boss after 4 days of raging lunacy and she apologised stating that she was under a lot of pressure to put someon in this position that was unexpectedly vacated and that I was doing better in our current department than he was, and she took some off hand remark I made as a sign of disinterest in that line of work. She even offered to open the post up again for fair interviewing. I appreciated this, and felt better and more in the know. I can understand her pressure as I know how things have been around here. And I know her, she wouldnt overlook or harm anyone intentionally. I opted not to compete because I felt it would be unfair to ask her to retract the job offer, and we both knew that the other 2 folk running that dept were geek types that had made up their minds and werent likely to change them when forced to make things messy by having open interviewing.

I am copign now, but this loss of temper has motivated me to rehire my therapist. Yay for me... so this Sat at 8 I go to get my head shrunk by my favorite man.... Mr. Bill!