"Things you said that day up on the 101, the Girl had come undone. I tried to downplay it with a bet about us you said you would take as long as I could, I could not erase it...."
-Tori Amos
I love Tori, and I have been listening to her since Little Earthquakes when I was 14 or so and in dire need of...
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-Tori Amos
I love Tori, and I have been listening to her since Little Earthquakes when I was 14 or so and in dire need of...
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I am wicked stuffy and sorry for not haivng been to the journals i usually visit.
I will do a big entry monday, i am taking a day off now
I will do a big entry monday, i am taking a day off now
lilith:
Oh, I am so sick too! I am host to a nasty virus as well. I hope you feel better soon!
xoxo,
Lilith
xoxo,
Lilith
calvinbrookfield:
Wicked stuffy. Not fun. Heck, take two days off. The SG community will forgive!
Today was the first Parent teacher confrence. And in my usual hope for the best but expect the worst way I walked in half ecpecting them to tell me that my son has developed a new form of bubonic plague that he has given to all of his class mates. (Now I am his biggest fan... but that also means I know what he's capable...
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lv:
need you...
dream you...
bind you...
taste you...
use you...
scar you...
fuck you...
break you...
dream you...
bind you...
taste you...
use you...
scar you...
fuck you...
break you...
piggers:
i hate christmas shopping. hello by the way
today I am setting the Hella Goal...
I will get all of my work shit done in my first 2 hours here.
I will complete and do lay out for no less than 4 additional pages in the zine.
I will come up with concepts for 5 more zine pieces
I will come up with an active schedule to remodel the house
I will head...
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I will get all of my work shit done in my first 2 hours here.
I will complete and do lay out for no less than 4 additional pages in the zine.
I will come up with concepts for 5 more zine pieces
I will come up with an active schedule to remodel the house
I will head...
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calvinbrookfield:
Making goals must be tiring. Take a break. Put them off until next year. 
I survived Thanksgiving pretty well. The current companion came with and it was a relatively enjoyable event.
I am here today but feeling much like a tuning fork, I am tired and I still have errands to run. I want to go home and nap.
Am at work, am working on a page to the zine... it will be finished soon... me hopes.
am boaring...
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I am here today but feeling much like a tuning fork, I am tired and I still have errands to run. I want to go home and nap.
Am at work, am working on a page to the zine... it will be finished soon... me hopes.
am boaring...
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lv:
You are not boaring.
But even if you are, I look forward to the passionate one come Monday...today! yay!
You are not boaring.
But even if you are, I look forward to the passionate one come Monday...today! yay!Day before thanksgiving, and I wont be back to this blessed site until Saturday.
I am risking loosing the perverbial cool by sitting at a table with my mother.... but truly... who isnt?
Nachos for breakfast and my easy slip on shoes on my feet. Work has never been cooler.
SO I think I'm gettin boring today... and whats more is that I am not...
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I am risking loosing the perverbial cool by sitting at a table with my mother.... but truly... who isnt?
Nachos for breakfast and my easy slip on shoes on my feet. Work has never been cooler.
SO I think I'm gettin boring today... and whats more is that I am not...
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lychenz:
I do accept your offer to be a "companion in wit and a friend in compassion".
Uh, yeah. Im not sure where to go from there.
Everybody be cool. You, be cool.
Uh, yeah. Im not sure where to go from there.
Everybody be cool. You, be cool.
troglodyte:
Being able to tolerate one's mother for extended periods of time is pretty cool. 
It rained last night and in truth I live for those evenings. I makes me happy to hear the sound of the rain come to hit the pavement, the roof, the windows.... and then the chill sets in deep.
I sleep best that way.
I sleep best that way.
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varzadium:
You sent me a message today while I was away. Just wanted to write you back to let you know I wasn't ignoring you.
Hi, btw.
Hi, btw.
galvagin:
Thanks for the poem. I'd reply in kind, if I had the art.
Mondays...
I was born on a snowy Monday in 1978
I am eating noodle soup at my desk, and finding that a sweater is too warm for today.
I had a lot of sex this weekend. Likely some of the best sex I have had in a long time if not ever.
And no one on here wants to hear that... no guy I talk...
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I was born on a snowy Monday in 1978
I am eating noodle soup at my desk, and finding that a sweater is too warm for today.
I had a lot of sex this weekend. Likely some of the best sex I have had in a long time if not ever.
And no one on here wants to hear that... no guy I talk...
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oak:
Thanks for the words. The really fun part is all the looks I get when we're out ... I guess everyone assumes that I beat her. She was talking about getting buttons made that say "It wasn't him" or something.
I think what you say up there about you and your lover being on the "same page" boosting your sex life is totally right on. I think pretty much anything you do to get closer, brings you closer in the bedroom, in ways.
I think what you say up there about you and your lover being on the "same page" boosting your sex life is totally right on. I think pretty much anything you do to get closer, brings you closer in the bedroom, in ways.
lychenz:
the only thing with hope is: that is all it is. Nothing truely substantial to base anything on. So it grows, then rather than little bits of hope i have lots of it, but La belle dame merci still "hath thee in thrall" ~ John Keats
Anyway, thanks for reading my thing, i think you are the first person to ever actually say anything on it besides this one member i know.
Have fun.
oh, which painting do you like? there are like 5 of them. Also, if you havent already, check out the poem "la belle dame sans merci" by John Keats
Anyway, thanks for reading my thing, i think you are the first person to ever actually say anything on it besides this one member i know.
Have fun.
oh, which painting do you like? there are like 5 of them. Also, if you havent already, check out the poem "la belle dame sans merci" by John Keats
So I am still not well.... cough cough, hiss hiss....
This morning I almost left my current lover. You see communication in a very honest, very regular way is VERY important to me..... important enough that I would terminate a relationship should that feature be seriously nonfunctional. SO I used my native language... writing... and I wrote him a letter setting out before him precicely...
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This morning I almost left my current lover. You see communication in a very honest, very regular way is VERY important to me..... important enough that I would terminate a relationship should that feature be seriously nonfunctional. SO I used my native language... writing... and I wrote him a letter setting out before him precicely...
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its_matt:
do i get a special kiss, or at least a look of non-disgust?
calvinbrookfield:
Thank you for your special kiss. One right back at you. I hope you have a good weekend.
Uggh...
Piss and Vinegar seem to be the flvor today. I woke up ill... and I hate being ill. It makes me tired and often unable to focus long enough to successfully complete my three thousand daily tasks... so then i get snippy... and then i recognose that the people around me didnt make me sick and they really dont deserve a snippy me and...
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Piss and Vinegar seem to be the flvor today. I woke up ill... and I hate being ill. It makes me tired and often unable to focus long enough to successfully complete my three thousand daily tasks... so then i get snippy... and then i recognose that the people around me didnt make me sick and they really dont deserve a snippy me and...
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lv:
Sounds like warm bath time.
You had intended to write something different, and I had intended to read something diferent here today. *grin*
A continuous flow of surprises!
You had intended to write something different, and I had intended to read something diferent here today. *grin*
A continuous flow of surprises!
calvinbrookfield:
If you can't be bitchy on the internet, then where?
Cute? I prefer awkward and desperate.
Cute? I prefer awkward and desperate.
The office is warm today. I do most of these entries from my desk at work. The season here at the institute is slow, the summer is when things get fast and when I will likely go a little quiet. But today the heat is on too high and it makes me sleepy.
My head spins as I work to put together the next issue...
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My head spins as I work to put together the next issue...
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lv:
What is this mentioned zine about? I was curious before, but though I would save it, however continued mention keeps me in the shadows of question...
I want to just make two small points in response to your stream-of-consciousness essay and topic above. First, if you're writing about forgiveness and have a philosophy behind it, yet find yourself unable to forgive someone else for something right now, perhaps you can use that in formulating said philosophy? For instance, forgiveness may have a courtship period where one feels pain over a certain amount of time or even a threshold before it can be truly gotten over...or perhaps someone wrongs you so much that they will never again attain the previously attained 'status' and respect in your eyes...thus a form of unforgiveness... I don't think it would fit into anyone's thinking that forgiveness be given a strict time limit, nor that it shouldn't be given time at all and should be instantaneous (turning the other cheek)...I think most people would be sympathetic to some sort of grace period...before forgiveness can be doled out. In a way, you can look at it like a period of mourning, or a period of time before one can fall in love again after being so deeply hurt...
Second, and I've already slightly bled into this, but forgiveness and angst may be part of the balance of life and self and emotion...something that fits somewhat with my own philosophies. If you're dreamy and happy about everything, does that mean you are unmotivated to do anything at all...which could lead to unhappiness? That angst you hold onto is a counterweight to your happiness...making it better defined, noticed, and much more thoroughly enjoyed. It is like feeling and embracing the cold in order to better appreciate the heat when it washed over you in a doorway. I think, while the angst itself (or unforgiveness) may not be defensible or even morally right, but I think there may have to be at least a little evil, a little pain, a little unforgiveness, to balance out and give meaning to the opposite...
Lastly, and just to mention it again, some people and some acts do not deserve forgiveness. True, you probably shouldn't let it fester and unduely influence future anger and harshness toward a person, but sometimes someone does something that is just not right with you, and no amount of thinking or guilt or reason will ever bring that person back to the previous level of acceptance or respect. I guess that may mean you and I would have to define what forgiveness is (for what discussion is truly a discussion without first defining the terms and boundaries?), as perhaps my feeling of forgiveness is different.
By the way...
PS: If you can guess my philosophy at any point (at least as described in some fiction and circles), I'll personally make sure I make love to you in some way. At any rate, pride is not a bad thing...I have a lot of pride in myself, but of course, that may just again be difference of definition or connotation...
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I want to just make two small points in response to your stream-of-consciousness essay and topic above.
First, if you're writing about forgiveness and have a philosophy behind it, yet find yourself unable to forgive someone else for something right now, perhaps you can use that in formulating said philosophy? For instance, forgiveness may have a courtship period where one feels pain over a certain amount of time or even a threshold before it can be truly gotten over...or perhaps someone wrongs you so much that they will never again attain the previously attained 'status' and respect in your eyes...thus a form of unforgiveness... I don't think it would fit into anyone's thinking that forgiveness be given a strict time limit, nor that it shouldn't be given time at all and should be instantaneous (turning the other cheek)...I think most people would be sympathetic to some sort of grace period...before forgiveness can be doled out. In a way, you can look at it like a period of mourning, or a period of time before one can fall in love again after being so deeply hurt...
Second, and I've already slightly bled into this, but forgiveness and angst may be part of the balance of life and self and emotion...something that fits somewhat with my own philosophies. If you're dreamy and happy about everything, does that mean you are unmotivated to do anything at all...which could lead to unhappiness? That angst you hold onto is a counterweight to your happiness...making it better defined, noticed, and much more thoroughly enjoyed. It is like feeling and embracing the cold in order to better appreciate the heat when it washed over you in a doorway. I think, while the angst itself (or unforgiveness) may not be defensible or even morally right, but I think there may have to be at least a little evil, a little pain, a little unforgiveness, to balance out and give meaning to the opposite...
Lastly, and just to mention it again, some people and some acts do not deserve forgiveness. True, you probably shouldn't let it fester and unduely influence future anger and harshness toward a person, but sometimes someone does something that is just not right with you, and no amount of thinking or guilt or reason will ever bring that person back to the previous level of acceptance or respect. I guess that may mean you and I would have to define what forgiveness is (for what discussion is truly a discussion without first defining the terms and boundaries?), as perhaps my feeling of forgiveness is different.
By the way...
PS: If you can guess my philosophy at any point (at least as described in some fiction and circles), I'll personally make sure I make love to you in some way.
At any rate, pride is not a bad thing...I have a lot of pride in myself, but of course, that may just again be difference of definition or connotation...[Edited on Nov 19, 2003 2:59PM]
Allergic to the air today I am!
I think I have sneezed more this morning than I have all year. I was in chat last evening, and I had a marvelous time. Now If day to day life was more welcoming perhaps I wouldnt be online so much.
I am working on the next issue of the currently nameless zine, and this is very much...
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I think I have sneezed more this morning than I have all year. I was in chat last evening, and I had a marvelous time. Now If day to day life was more welcoming perhaps I wouldnt be online so much.
I am working on the next issue of the currently nameless zine, and this is very much...
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lv:
This facet likes you too, and I hope you wander around my way often.
If you need to know more mundane details, I work daily from 7-4 central, so I'm usually not on until about 6 eastern...and from then on it's scattered until 1am eastern....or straight through depending on my lack of things to do.
If you need to know more mundane details, I work daily from 7-4 central, so I'm usually not on until about 6 eastern...and from then on it's scattered until 1am eastern....or straight through depending on my lack of things to do.
its_matt:
woooooooooooo!!!!
welcome to the wonderful world of chat!!!
behold our wonderful smileys when ya cant be arsed typing shit!!!
marvel at the private chat button so you can tell a wierdo to fuck off or talk about someone behind their back!!!
glad you enjoyed yourself, social interaction, tis a wonderful thing...
welcome to the wonderful world of chat!!!
behold our wonderful smileys when ya cant be arsed typing shit!!!
marvel at the private chat button so you can tell a wierdo to fuck off or talk about someone behind their back!!!
glad you enjoyed yourself, social interaction, tis a wonderful thing...
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