I stocked up Sav-On's generic version of Airborne. Yay.
A few random thoughts:
Lately I'm hard pressed to actually want to be social, and I know that many friendships have fallen by the wayside as I am overwhelmed with work, educational possibilities, and not to mention my ever changing world view.
The universe is so much bigger than me, and I've... Read More
Having a cushion can be a burden as well, because it feels as if there is a giant boulder on my back trying to live up to the expectations of those who are there in times of trouble, to show them that I am not a waste and to give back as much as I used tenfold.
I can relate on the supporting yourself since you've been 15. I'm sure we talked about that when I was in LA-land. Whenever I listen to friends and other people talking about falling back on their safety net I feel a little sad. It's difficult, actually with my boyfriend who has the most supportive family and a (fairly) well off grandmother who have put him through university, a masters and now a PhD. I'm a little jealous, but try not to be because he spoils me and tells me how I'll get to go to school and do all the things I've always wanted to do once he's finished his stuff and can get a good paying job and support me. Maybe it'll come true, maybe it won't. But, I just wish I could do it on my own and not have to rely on anyone else to support me. It's difficult to not feel sorry for yourself sometimes, I feel you on that.
I've always wondered if that upper-middle-class world really has it better. I guess everthing has it's negative points. Like you've pointed out money can't buy personalities.
On the one hand there are the friends i grew up with... i'm currently living about 400 km apart from my hometown, so i do not really get to see them that often.
On the other hand, i'd really like to meet some people i originally met online on Shannon Larratt's site (don't know if it's allowed to mention the 3 capital letters here hrhr) more often. We usually get to meet once or twice a year on the occasion of Tattoo Conventions... last time we met was Oct. '05 in London; really hope to get there again this year =]
Right now there are two things that I am thankful for.
Jeff Buckley's Grace. Top 10 albums ever.
Two, a new and exciting friendship with a lovely girl who I hope to know forever. She's really quite cool, and you know how I am lately about making friends.
I am also thankful for Diet Coke Black Cherry Vanilla.
Hey that is a really sweet story about talking to your old flame again ... It's way good to resolve past conflict with an ex and be at peace about ir...Congrats ... Um...
I am thankful for the wonderful sun everyday and that people aka my friends..like me for my personality and not my looks or money (or sometimes lack thereof) etc..
oh! i was checking out your pics files.. man you look so good in those costumes, aeon flux was one of my faves and you are the spitting image of bettie in one... soo cool...
do you model for anyone these days? like a cool clothing company or something?
you should!
Looking good as ever. I heard an 'old' friend of mine died today. He died of a heart attack but I don't think he saw you in your bathing outfit. You're in the clear...
and they are from "the valley." the shock! the horror!
or in other words, nothing is free