Go to the place where everyone knows your name. Or not.
Ironically, this place is perhaps the most "private" one for me on the internet right now. Allow me to share something that a very dear friend of mine (who's also an ex) wrote to me not long ago.
I'm pretty good friends with most of them, the ex's, with the notable exception of 2, maybe 3. One was so immature and entirely misrepresented himself that I had to break off all contact and he still just didn't get it. Another one is just not a nice guy at the end of the day, no matter what his life appears to be now. I don't have very much faith in people changing for the better anymore. I wrote about him in the last blog post and have been trying to delete pics of him on here. Didn't get all of them as SG seems to have JavaScript troubles. They're deleted in my mind, at least.
And for the third ex, well, hmm. Unsupportive might be a good adjective and I'll leave it at that for now.
So I'll share some excerpts from the email from my nice ex. (When he refers to hell and back, the vacationing part, he was there with me for some months, front and center).
I got to see him last year in Portland and we did still have all the feels but couldn't acknowledge it properly. Spoilered below if you haven't watched Penny Dreadful. He's one of the main reasons that I didn't move back to Portland. That and the California hatred and plus things aren't that cheaper than the Bay Area anymore. I do miss my other friends that are there.Much like Vanessa Ives and Ethan Chandler's romance in Penny Dreadful, we just weren't meant to be and it was tragic. No one had to die at least...
I still think of him fondly and obviously, we communicate here and there. He's in a seemingly wonderful relationship that's good for him and I don't need to interfere with it for my own selfish nostalgia. Perhaps I'll never find "the one", and that's fine. I've got a full and rich life filled with two littles that are my everything. Life doesn't stop for us, period.
The relevant excerpts:
I want you to know that I believe in you. I hope that you get some moments of peace during this difficult time, having to wait for your guild lto start and shifting into the next gear must be all the more difficult.
Thanks for the kind words in there, I feel lucky to have known you, and had the opportunity to be so close. You have taught me so much, we were both so young and dumb, yet somehow we were convinced that we were so smart. Hahah
Keep your chin up. Your strength is your beauty, and it amazes all who know you. You will get through this. You've been to hell and back (even vacationed there for a time) before, and you are stronger for it. Those girls are truly blessed to have you as their mother, show them how it's done.
