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So I have been TRYING to get in on PSW chat because I like PSW's I think they are beautiful. Everytime I go in to chat it up and have some fun crack a joke or two I fucking get blocked. I don't know what I did but it always happens after they look at my webcam. So maybe it's me, I'm ugly or offensive to some people because of the way I look. I don't know. So I think I am going to take a break form the group for a while and from chat especially. I don't know because I love PSW but I am getting really annoyed.

My moving plan has been delayed because I won't have money for a security deposit until the first and for some reason all of the of the property management companies want you to sign and move in on the 14 of the month.

I think I am going to stop powerlifiting. It is taking a tool on my body already and I am only 31. Instead I am going to start a swinning routine and lift weights "lightly" I guess but it doesn't make any sense to me because I have always trained heavy for college football and throwing the shot put.

I had a long talk with my sister yesterday about a lot of things. She is a school psychologist and she says that I am letting go of all of the things that I used to love like the throwing the shot put, where I was a national champion in college and coaching football and stuff like that. She thinks it is because of my problems from the war and other issues I have that some of you know about. I think she is right but I need to get myself together before I get back to the things I love.

take care everyone

I love you all

Lou