I don't even know what to write about. Guess that's 'cuz there's so much going on.. I guess. probably finally get to move into 21st Century housing. Yay!!!! Um... Most of my friends are recovering still from the holiday.... Hellish yet wonderful, wasn't it.
Don't feel like writing anything witty or dower. WELL yeah, I do feel like writing something witty.
send Garnet
I command...
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Don't feel like writing anything witty or dower. WELL yeah, I do feel like writing something witty.
send Garnet
I command... Read More
Gosh.
The holidays.... very strange... a friend of mine gave me some old playboys, (I used to own every issue from the mid fifties to eighties.... & I saw some previously unreleased pictures of Marilyn Monroe....& got depressed...She was so beautiful. She only lived to be 36!....
Well... The good news is that there will be lots of new SGs from
Thailand, Sri Llanka &...
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The holidays.... very strange... a friend of mine gave me some old playboys, (I used to own every issue from the mid fifties to eighties.... & I saw some previously unreleased pictures of Marilyn Monroe....& got depressed...She was so beautiful. She only lived to be 36!....
Well... The good news is that there will be lots of new SGs from
Thailand, Sri Llanka &...
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elfboy:
P.S. Send Garnet Love!
paleenchantress:
im glad you are healthy darling ! 
Guess What?!!!
I get to play Joseph in the Christmas Pageant!!
ANYBODY GOT A SPARE MULE?
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paleenchantress:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING AND HAPPY NEW YEAR !
kizmet:
happy happy b'day kitten!!!!!
Updating my journal.... Hmm. Haven't felt like it, been in writing/housing frenzy.
Everyone is busy or venting frustration by not being ....
helpful. It is indeed difficult to accomplish anything this time of year, isn't it?
But have fun, of course, Gawd Willin' (or @ least one's self)
I enjoyed the holidays more once I stopped hating them...
All my relatives are...relatively crazy....
So are...
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Everyone is busy or venting frustration by not being ....
helpful. It is indeed difficult to accomplish anything this time of year, isn't it?
But have fun, of course, Gawd Willin' (or @ least one's self)
I enjoyed the holidays more once I stopped hating them...
All my relatives are...relatively crazy....
So are...
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song:
"I enjoyed the holidays more once I stopped hating them..." I can't even describe the shit day I had today.( My doctor put me on the most pacic attack indusing meds I've ever taken) But back to the quote: Gradually, that's how I'm starting to feel about me self. small and far between- like little raindrops on windshields, I'm starting to enjoy more than hate myself. It was such a simplistic little thing in your entry but it struck me hard. Blah blah blah mootide.....
Have a widely beautiful night.
Have a widely beautiful night.
Hmm.
Read a book of Native American Art. Cool.
Oddly, about 1/3 of them never made it past forty....
But Anime fans woulda loved it...
and folk artist fans...
Also browsed a beautiful book on Churches for some research...
Amazing stuff......
Wanna go to NYC, too....
Decisions, decisions...
Read a book of Native American Art. Cool.
Oddly, about 1/3 of them never made it past forty....
But Anime fans woulda loved it...
and folk artist fans...
Also browsed a beautiful book on Churches for some research...
Amazing stuff......
Wanna go to NYC, too....
Decisions, decisions...
song:
this humble little note is not for the journal entry. I have stumbled acrosss your profile for reasons unknown to myself. I'm taken by your other worldlyness. It a quality I always am searching for.... Have
a wildly beautiful night, and I humbly request your comradery. Adieu.
a wildly beautiful night, and I humbly request your comradery. Adieu.
I passed my piss test. I have no criminal record.
Duh.
I coulda told you that.
Stupid "Employers"
For a temp job? Cripes....!
< Haven't used that face in a while.....
Duh.
I coulda told you that.
Stupid "Employers"
For a temp job? Cripes....!
< Haven't used that face in a while.....
stardust_:
I agree, it's bullshit- but hey! you got the job! Yeey you!
I had to pee in a cup today.
WTF??!
Last Friday one of the people from the 6 Temp agencies called me to see if I wanted an assignment. The pay's okay, and it's 3rd shift, which frees up the day.
"Okay", I said.
"You'll have to take a drug test", he said. "Is that okay"?
"No", I answered, "but I'll pass it, and I...
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stardust_:
You're saying it like peeing in a cup is a bad thing!
paleenchantress:
how are you doing sweetie ?
Happy Holiday, y'all.
Err... change of subject......
Here's a little something I found on the Astral Planes....
Willy & Milly - Down on the Farm
(Another First) Episode
Willy walks into the large country kitchen where Milly is scolding Willy Jr.
Willy: Well, Milly, I fixed the loft in the barn. Now we can rent it as a weekly. Maybe Cousin John...
Milly: (to Willy Jr.) You're a...
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Here's a little something I found on the Astral Planes....
Willy & Milly - Down on the Farm
(Another First) Episode
Willy walks into the large country kitchen where Milly is scolding Willy Jr.
Willy: Well, Milly, I fixed the loft in the barn. Now we can rent it as a weekly. Maybe Cousin John...
Milly: (to Willy Jr.) You're a...
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Okay.
Things are going a bit better now. The shock started to lift last weekend, and all the stuff I've got to accomplish is getting done.
Getting there, as they say.
The holiday is fast approaching. I don't know whether to mourn or just enjoy the holiday (Native American thing). I might as well just enjoy while I mourn....
Arnold ( The Governator) is Pretty,...
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Things are going a bit better now. The shock started to lift last weekend, and all the stuff I've got to accomplish is getting done.
Getting there, as they say.
The holiday is fast approaching. I don't know whether to mourn or just enjoy the holiday (Native American thing). I might as well just enjoy while I mourn....
Arnold ( The Governator) is Pretty,...
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nixon:
Secretary? I heard it was the pool boy...
elfboy:
Another addendum.
Last night I went out and bought a couple of fourties, and spent most of the night talking with my friends about recent events.
I woke up this morning hung over, and thoroughly, completely, absolutely, totally depressed.
It feels great.
For years, I've been worried about paying the rent, keeping up with the bills, keeping a job, running a business, taking care of my friends & relatives, my pets, finding a girlfriend, keeping my friends & business associates out of trouble, all the fighting around me, all the yelling, etc., etc.,etc....
No more chest pain...
No more stomach problems...
No more peculiar arrangement of thought...
No more aching "base"
I'm completely cured.
I've always had a rather melancholic disposition, but for years I just couldn't get there, 'cuz I had too much to do.
Everything falling apart finally "took me home".....and I feel fine.
Last night I went out and bought a couple of fourties, and spent most of the night talking with my friends about recent events.
I woke up this morning hung over, and thoroughly, completely, absolutely, totally depressed.
It feels great.
For years, I've been worried about paying the rent, keeping up with the bills, keeping a job, running a business, taking care of my friends & relatives, my pets, finding a girlfriend, keeping my friends & business associates out of trouble, all the fighting around me, all the yelling, etc., etc.,etc....
No more chest pain...
No more stomach problems...
No more peculiar arrangement of thought...
No more aching "base"
I'm completely cured.
I've always had a rather melancholic disposition, but for years I just couldn't get there, 'cuz I had too much to do.
Everything falling apart finally "took me home".....and I feel fine.
Okay. It's been a while.
Well, here's why... The lady in the past journals who was getting abused finally found another "Managed Care" apartment. After driving out all my other room-mates. Now I'm stranded...
My sister died on Halloween night from an accidental overdose of medications on the night she learned she might not get back her kids, which, coincidentally, was the aniversary of her...
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Well, here's why... The lady in the past journals who was getting abused finally found another "Managed Care" apartment. After driving out all my other room-mates. Now I'm stranded...
My sister died on Halloween night from an accidental overdose of medications on the night she learned she might not get back her kids, which, coincidentally, was the aniversary of her...
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elfboy:
Rather than write a new entry, I've decided to add an addendum. Of sorts. Not exactly related, but not unrelated, either.
Molestation is caused by fear and insecurity. Abuse is caused by anger and pain. Both rooted in the Limbic system, both expressing a sense of powerlessness.
In an unwell way.
I was doing my shiatsu exercises this morning, the one in which one is face down on the floor in a fetal position, like in mosques, when I "looked' into
my sister's grave. I wondered why her, why her first, even for a second why it wasn't me. Wondered why my Mother has to deal with this now.
I've been wrecked for nearly two weeks. I was fortunate. I had lots of family, and lots of intimacy as a child, so I've never had problems w/ it.
My sister's secrets will be buried with her, largely, but the causes will echo through time, as will the effects.
Alot of people who have tried to force me to make certain personal choices now understand what I've been telling them for years & years. They unfortunately have been forced to gain a new perspective about me, and learned what they have missed, had been spared.
A wise friend of mine said today "If Sin is Need, and you have been sinned against, it is because.....
you are needed."
It's odd that I remain so logical whilst being so emotionally...offbeat.
An abnormal response to an abnormal situation is normal. So I guess I'm not crazy.
Peace, my friends...
Molestation is caused by fear and insecurity. Abuse is caused by anger and pain. Both rooted in the Limbic system, both expressing a sense of powerlessness.
In an unwell way.
I was doing my shiatsu exercises this morning, the one in which one is face down on the floor in a fetal position, like in mosques, when I "looked' into
my sister's grave. I wondered why her, why her first, even for a second why it wasn't me. Wondered why my Mother has to deal with this now.
I've been wrecked for nearly two weeks. I was fortunate. I had lots of family, and lots of intimacy as a child, so I've never had problems w/ it.
My sister's secrets will be buried with her, largely, but the causes will echo through time, as will the effects.
Alot of people who have tried to force me to make certain personal choices now understand what I've been telling them for years & years. They unfortunately have been forced to gain a new perspective about me, and learned what they have missed, had been spared.
A wise friend of mine said today "If Sin is Need, and you have been sinned against, it is because.....
you are needed."
It's odd that I remain so logical whilst being so emotionally...offbeat.
An abnormal response to an abnormal situation is normal. So I guess I'm not crazy.
Peace, my friends...
brandy:
I'm sorry...sounds like things have been rough...vida loco
The good news & bad news:
The good news is, you girls were right all along. Bigger IS Better.
The good news is, Suicide Girls & burleque will become much more popular. In fact, Huge. And you'll never grow old.
Botox stocks will increase.
Concerns about mimimum wage will be a think of the past.
Taxes will be much much lower.
A new shielding broach...
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The good news is, you girls were right all along. Bigger IS Better.
The good news is, Suicide Girls & burleque will become much more popular. In fact, Huge. And you'll never grow old.
Botox stocks will increase.
Concerns about mimimum wage will be a think of the past.
Taxes will be much much lower.
A new shielding broach...
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nixon:
Yup.
Now hand me my jet pack.
Now hand me my jet pack.