eleutherophobia

I'm having a hard time figuring out what it is that I'm doing, or trying to do, or aspiring to do.
It seems that I have a lot on my plate, but I'm still not satisfied.
I want some sort of gratification, contentment, anything.

Maybe I need something new.
I'm not okay with where I am.
Or where I think I'm going.

I want to be everything I possibly can
and everything that I deserve.
I want to feel needed, like I have some
sort of purpose.

Is all of this worth it?

I constantly ask myself that question.
And I never know the answer.

Will anything ever be worth it?
Is there anything worth striving for?
Will my goals ever be met?

I want....something.
anything.
and I want it now.