What Came Before...
After dealing with intense emotional trauma, supposedly winning the girl back after her toy soldier dumped her (for what later turned out to be a Tgirl - trans-gender genetically-born male cross-dresser who wants to be a woman), then being betrayed by her once again when he comes begging her forgiveness and giving the usual lies about how much he really loves her, etc., lies, etc....I finally decided last week that I had no choice but to cut myself off emotionally and mentally in order to dampen the pain of the loss of such a long-term relationship. Unfortunately this makes for great drama because the physical side is wary of cooperation. It doesn't help when women who've lusted after me forever and a day suddenly come forward out of the shadows and try to scoop me up for their private parlors. But without the mental component, the physical just may not feel as good as it should. Perhaps if I found someone who was intellectually stimulating as well as physically I'd probably be knocking boots all of the time. Sex is known as a great way to heal after being intentionally kept from it for so long. And the emotional high that should be the result of the physical is also notably keeping a tight rein on everything. I know that this will pass once I am away from my current sunk relationship situation. Heh, of course it won't slow my performance down any. Care for a spin?
ULTIMATE UPDATE STATUS
Seems like yesterday since I last posted a journal, so I haven't been here to update anyone on my status in between what went before and what has occurred since. Upon being betrayed for the second time and realizing that I was being played for a fool in order to yo-yo my emotions (being kept as a backup BF to provide emotional equilibrium for infidelity can just tick me off...), I have applied and was immediately hired to serve a deployment overseas in the Kingdom of Qatar, just east of Saudi Arabia. Over the past weeks since the final straw, I've packed over 60% of my personal belongings, and have put my gaming desktop and other items up for sale to the first person to pay me. I leave for overseas quite soon, and will be unable to do anymore photo shoots until my return, at which time I will have opened up a studio of my own somewhere. Sometime next year I plan to flip contracts to the highest bidder in the Middle East. Money or death, choose both. The stats for the desktop are available below.
During my trip I will be trying to scrounge up the money to purchase a gaming laptop for my use on their slower internet, so I can actually play online while deployed. My duties will be as Force Protection Security for DynCorp International, and I will possibly be serving there for about two years. I hereby offer SG fans ANYWHERE the chance to purchase my current desktop gaming PC, of which stats are as follows. I will ship anywhere as long as exact (not inflated) shipping costs are paid.
NOTE: Computer must be sold and will be shipped to you by November 10th!!!
DEFAULT SPECIFICATIONS (not including my modifications/enhancements):
* Operating System: Genuine Microsoft Windows XP Home SP2
* CPU: AMD Athlon XP 3200+ Processor
~> QuantiSpeed Architecture operates at 2.200GHz
* Motherboard: 512KB L2 cache & 400MHz FSB
* Chipset: NVIDIA nForce 2
* Memory/RAM: 512MB DDR (PC 2700)*!*
* Hard Drive: 160GB HDD (7200rpm)
* Optical Drives:
~> DVD RW Drive (Write Max: 8x DVDR, 4x DVDRW, 32x CD-R, 16x CD-RW; Reads 40x CD, 12x DVD and DVD+R DL, CD+G, C2 Errors, CD Text, Buffer Underrun Protection);
~> 48x Max. CD-ROM Drive (Read 52x: CD-R, CD-RW, VCD, buffer 128KB)
* Media Reader: 8-in-1 digital media manager
~> USB 2.0,
~> Secure Digital (SD),
~> Smart Media,
~> Compact Flash (all CF),
~> Memory Stick,
~> Memory Stick PRO,
~> Micro Drive,
~> Multimedia Card (MMC)
* Onboard Video: NVIDIA GeForce MX graphics (1 AGP 8x slot available)*!*
* Onboard Sound: nForce 6-channel Audio*!*
* Network/NIC: 10/100Mbps built-in Ethernet
* Modem: 56K ITU v.92-ready Fax/Modem
* Peripherals:
~> Premium Plus Multimedia Keyboard,
~> 2-Button Wheel Mouse,
~> Amplified Stereo Side Speakers (2)
* Ports/Other:
~> 5 USB 2.0 ports (4 in back; 1 in Media Reader),
~> 1 Serial,
~> 1 Parallel,
~> 2 PS/2,
~> Audio-In & Out
* Dimensions: 7.25"W x 14.125"H x 16"D
===eMachines website specs.===
!!!NOTE: MODIFICATIONS AND ENHANCEMENTS ARE SHOWN IN THE POST BELOW!!!
After dealing with intense emotional trauma, supposedly winning the girl back after her toy soldier dumped her (for what later turned out to be a Tgirl - trans-gender genetically-born male cross-dresser who wants to be a woman), then being betrayed by her once again when he comes begging her forgiveness and giving the usual lies about how much he really loves her, etc., lies, etc....I finally decided last week that I had no choice but to cut myself off emotionally and mentally in order to dampen the pain of the loss of such a long-term relationship. Unfortunately this makes for great drama because the physical side is wary of cooperation. It doesn't help when women who've lusted after me forever and a day suddenly come forward out of the shadows and try to scoop me up for their private parlors. But without the mental component, the physical just may not feel as good as it should. Perhaps if I found someone who was intellectually stimulating as well as physically I'd probably be knocking boots all of the time. Sex is known as a great way to heal after being intentionally kept from it for so long. And the emotional high that should be the result of the physical is also notably keeping a tight rein on everything. I know that this will pass once I am away from my current sunk relationship situation. Heh, of course it won't slow my performance down any. Care for a spin?
ULTIMATE UPDATE STATUS
Seems like yesterday since I last posted a journal, so I haven't been here to update anyone on my status in between what went before and what has occurred since. Upon being betrayed for the second time and realizing that I was being played for a fool in order to yo-yo my emotions (being kept as a backup BF to provide emotional equilibrium for infidelity can just tick me off...), I have applied and was immediately hired to serve a deployment overseas in the Kingdom of Qatar, just east of Saudi Arabia. Over the past weeks since the final straw, I've packed over 60% of my personal belongings, and have put my gaming desktop and other items up for sale to the first person to pay me. I leave for overseas quite soon, and will be unable to do anymore photo shoots until my return, at which time I will have opened up a studio of my own somewhere. Sometime next year I plan to flip contracts to the highest bidder in the Middle East. Money or death, choose both. The stats for the desktop are available below.
During my trip I will be trying to scrounge up the money to purchase a gaming laptop for my use on their slower internet, so I can actually play online while deployed. My duties will be as Force Protection Security for DynCorp International, and I will possibly be serving there for about two years. I hereby offer SG fans ANYWHERE the chance to purchase my current desktop gaming PC, of which stats are as follows. I will ship anywhere as long as exact (not inflated) shipping costs are paid.
NOTE: Computer must be sold and will be shipped to you by November 10th!!!
DEFAULT SPECIFICATIONS (not including my modifications/enhancements):
* Operating System: Genuine Microsoft Windows XP Home SP2
* CPU: AMD Athlon XP 3200+ Processor
~> QuantiSpeed Architecture operates at 2.200GHz
* Motherboard: 512KB L2 cache & 400MHz FSB
* Chipset: NVIDIA nForce 2
* Memory/RAM: 512MB DDR (PC 2700)*!*
* Hard Drive: 160GB HDD (7200rpm)
* Optical Drives:
~> DVD RW Drive (Write Max: 8x DVDR, 4x DVDRW, 32x CD-R, 16x CD-RW; Reads 40x CD, 12x DVD and DVD+R DL, CD+G, C2 Errors, CD Text, Buffer Underrun Protection);
~> 48x Max. CD-ROM Drive (Read 52x: CD-R, CD-RW, VCD, buffer 128KB)
* Media Reader: 8-in-1 digital media manager
~> USB 2.0,
~> Secure Digital (SD),
~> Smart Media,
~> Compact Flash (all CF),
~> Memory Stick,
~> Memory Stick PRO,
~> Micro Drive,
~> Multimedia Card (MMC)
* Onboard Video: NVIDIA GeForce MX graphics (1 AGP 8x slot available)*!*
* Onboard Sound: nForce 6-channel Audio*!*
* Network/NIC: 10/100Mbps built-in Ethernet
* Modem: 56K ITU v.92-ready Fax/Modem
* Peripherals:
~> Premium Plus Multimedia Keyboard,
~> 2-Button Wheel Mouse,
~> Amplified Stereo Side Speakers (2)
* Ports/Other:
~> 5 USB 2.0 ports (4 in back; 1 in Media Reader),
~> 1 Serial,
~> 1 Parallel,
~> 2 PS/2,
~> Audio-In & Out
* Dimensions: 7.25"W x 14.125"H x 16"D
===eMachines website specs.===
!!!NOTE: MODIFICATIONS AND ENHANCEMENTS ARE SHOWN IN THE POST BELOW!!!