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Have you ever felt like you are missing your crowd? Like part of your life is incomplete?

I’ve been struggling to find my people since as far as I can remember. A big part of it, I will admit, was me not giving myself permission to be ME. I felt like I needed to be ashamed of my interest in sexuality and the female form....
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rubymoon:
Yeah, I think I know what you mean.... I've never really found my people too, it's always been lonely
elegantorchid:
@rubymoon aww it is lonely 😔 🤗 it’s ok! They’re out there… probably looking for you too 🥰
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It’s something I’ve heard a lot, especially making the transition from freebies to paid shoots. The price of cameras are down and the ease of use is up. So how can a photographer justify charging $1,000+ for a session?

The rise of websites like pornhub, manyvids, and OnlyFans has caused a meteoric rise of amateur content. It’s blatantly clear people prefer simulated gf content rather...
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nannakya:
you are absolutly right! ♥
elegantorchid:
@rubymoon it’s a really incredible partnership. There is nothing quite like finding an incredible co-creator and creative partner!
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Are there things you are insecure about with your body?

Oh let me count the ways!…

I’ve really been trying to love myself in my own skin. To love the man I am and see how my experiences and choices have shaped me into the incredible person I am today.

But in truth, I am still insecure about my weight (235, 23% body fat). I’m...
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rubymoon:
That's so nice that you're trying to do something about your insecurities! Hope you can feel better soon, I'm sure you're a really nice guy. My main insecurity concerns my appearance in general, most days I feel like I'm 100% trash, but slowly trying to change that
thaimelo:
When you are aware of what you are feeling and try to understand all of this, it is already a great start. Trying to know yourself is the best thing. I have a lot of insecurities, be it with my body, with my choices, with my future, but I try not to sabotage myself and understand that every particularity makes us unique
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So I’ve been struggling for a little while. I felt like I was barely gaining traction, I lost all sense of creativity AND I worried it would be gone forever.

So what did I do? I went out and spent $10k on tech upgrades. New cameras, new lenses, new computer, new tablet. No I didn’t think the new camera or stuff was going to make...
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With so many things going wrong these days it feels like, "what's next?" There is a concept within the Law of Attraction where everything in your life is what you want. Sometimes it's hard to see things that way. Bad stuff happens and unforeseen tragedies happen. So how does that factor in? (That might be a good blog post for a later date).

But for...
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Last night I had a... kinda... date. I say kinda because it was with the writer friend. I invited her to come over to the house and have dinner with me and the boys. (I know! Scary!) It was cute, they were on their best behavior and for the most part left her alone other than being cute boys who are meeting a new person...
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Hey everybody! How are you doing? Here I sit watching my boys play video games. I’m feeling pretty done with dating apps, but I’m definitely in a place where I’m ready to start seeing someone.

I’m enjoying relearning about the Law of Attraction. When I became a life coach, this is the kind of stuff that got me into it.

That special someone and I
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So it appears I’ve attracted someone incredible to my life. She’s older than me, has kids much older than mine (16 & 18). But she gets me... for the most part.

It’s not so much a romantic thing as it is an intellectual thing. But either way... it’s nice.

She’s helping me to recognize what I want and where I’ve been holding myself back. My...
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emeralda:
thats nice! hope things turn out for the best. age is just a number <3
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I'm working through another set with @alyxhart and I can't wait for you all to see it! It's the last set we shot before I left Chicago for Tampa and it's FUCKING GORGEOUS!

alyxhart:
I LOVE YOU!!!!! AND I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH MATTIUS!! HMU ID LOVE TO TALK N CATCH UP💋💋💋💜💜💜💜💜💜
alyxhart:
Your lying! We did 1 more w the money n the chair! Dont want to put to much out n spoil the fun!