What Am I Best At? I'm going to sound incredible big headed when I say this but... I'm good at just about everything I try. I remember being in high school and finding out I was half decent at photography. Even my teacher admitted that while I wasn't GREAT at taking pictures... I was abnormally good at developing and editing. The art of photography is something I continue to work on... but I'm not sure I would say I'm the BEST at. Someday, I'd like to be recognized by my style... my way of dealing with models. But that's not my IT.
I was always doing music through school. First violin, and then guitar. After the guitar, I picked up bass and it was all down hill after that. My first love will ALWAYS be guitar. In fact, I'm getting a custom JEM (Steve Vai) guitar kit next week and I'll begin building that. We'll see if it becomes on of my loves or if I sell it for another guitar. I went from knowing nothing to teaching myself guitar to getting a full ride scholarship to Berklee College of Music for Guitar Performance... no small feat. BUT. I have a bad case of imposter syndrome. I'm not even playing OUT anymore... not since the kids. I see my life going back that direction, but I'm just... not sure how to approach it.
In college, I wanted to impress girls with my cooking... so I learned how to cook. After college I went from a line cook to a grill cook to a sous chef in under a year. I studied with the guy who was trained by a student of the Iron Chef Morimoto. SO... I can cook pretty good. Even though I joke that I can't.
I had a dream that I could paint, while going through my divorce I experimented and found out I actually AM good at painting. I sold three pieces, though I haven't painted in about a year.
I LOVE talking with people, and have three certificates in life coaching, relationships coaching, and sex coaching. All very fulfilling but I'm awful at getting clients!
I paid rent a few months when I lived in LA by writing erotica. I would consider myself pretty good at that... but it's not my THING.
Computer science, Pastoring, Mechanical Science, Electrical Engineering, conflict resolution, marksmanship... it's all easy to me. Which makes everything really boring.
What am I best at? I guess I would answer that with what do I WANT to be best at. I want to be best at capturing the unique energy of a woman when she stands before me and my camera. I want to be able to create that safe and special place where she can unfold and be herself; where I can light the rocket that is her strength while claiming her sexuality and intimacy. I'd love be fantastic at using my photography to empower a world full of women to see their bodies as incredible works of art and completely perfect as they are.
Lofty dreams... I know. For now... I settle with just having a full schedule of women who feel comfortable getting naked on camera.
