Have you ever felt like you are missing your crowd? Like part of your life is incomplete?
I’ve been struggling to find my people since as far as I can remember. A big part of it, I will admit, was me not giving myself permission to be ME. I felt like I needed to be ashamed of my interest in sexuality and the female form. At a young age, I loved adult photography and porn but it wasn’t ever really used for masturbation. It was a clear artistic appreciation. As I got older, and found photography, I realized that I had a desire to capture those things that people think should stay in the shadows.
After getting divorced, I realized my desire to study the human condition is something I want to have in common with my friends and lovers. But how to find those people??
It seems like such a small portion of people are in a healthy place and interested in the same things. I’ve found a few but quickly realized they were not what I thought or in transition to something else.
“Someday… I’ll be a REALLY cool old guy!” Something I continue to say about myself.
