Today I am home in bed. I got the bug. I always get it at the end of cycle. Everyone around me gets sick and I bragg about not being sick and then I get it. So it's my turn.
I was previously talking about getting yelled at work for the xmas blunder. The next day I had to fire someone. That sucked. The girl was pretty cool, too. She just wasn't doing the job she needed to be doing. She was warned a few times also. I hate that. I've fired about 4-5 people since I started as a head manager of this store.
I think about how I was before I became a manager. I just came to work, did my job and went home. I din't have to worry about more than someone stealing something or making sure everything was in its place. Now there is a whole other world to contend with and it's one that bears no importance in my 'real' life. It's crazy. But because it's what I have to do to get paid, it becomes important. So whether every customer is greeted and helped or if Chris is getting along with Carmen, I now have to care about those things. And in reality I don't give a fuck. This is precisely why I am going back to college. Because this shit is not the real world in my eyes. It's something bigger, greater and more rewarding.
When I'm seeing someone, the first part of the relationship is exciting and new and all that. After that dies down, I usually become disinterested and end up breaking things off. Not because I'm lazy or bored but because there weren't enough reasons in the first place for us to be together.
The girl I'm seeing now has been with me for almost 8 months. That is a long time for me and we have been through alot. I have had moments where I thought I was losing my attraction to the idea of being with her but I always bounce back. Now I'm getting another wave of those emotions and it's really messing with me. I love her and care about her very much and the idea of her not being a part of my life is fucked. If things don't change I will have to talk to her about it, but I fell like if I just stay patient things will bounce back for me. This wave is deeper than the others. I hope we make it.
I was previously talking about getting yelled at work for the xmas blunder. The next day I had to fire someone. That sucked. The girl was pretty cool, too. She just wasn't doing the job she needed to be doing. She was warned a few times also. I hate that. I've fired about 4-5 people since I started as a head manager of this store.
I think about how I was before I became a manager. I just came to work, did my job and went home. I din't have to worry about more than someone stealing something or making sure everything was in its place. Now there is a whole other world to contend with and it's one that bears no importance in my 'real' life. It's crazy. But because it's what I have to do to get paid, it becomes important. So whether every customer is greeted and helped or if Chris is getting along with Carmen, I now have to care about those things. And in reality I don't give a fuck. This is precisely why I am going back to college. Because this shit is not the real world in my eyes. It's something bigger, greater and more rewarding.
When I'm seeing someone, the first part of the relationship is exciting and new and all that. After that dies down, I usually become disinterested and end up breaking things off. Not because I'm lazy or bored but because there weren't enough reasons in the first place for us to be together.
The girl I'm seeing now has been with me for almost 8 months. That is a long time for me and we have been through alot. I have had moments where I thought I was losing my attraction to the idea of being with her but I always bounce back. Now I'm getting another wave of those emotions and it's really messing with me. I love her and care about her very much and the idea of her not being a part of my life is fucked. If things don't change I will have to talk to her about it, but I fell like if I just stay patient things will bounce back for me. This wave is deeper than the others. I hope we make it.
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I like the Bumblee Bee Gangster. I would've added gangreen and speedball addiction but these are small points that can be hashed out during production. I think you understand the WFPN philosophy of the downfall of western civilization through television so:
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