electric_squid

I just jolted myself awake at three this morning with the realization of how screwed I actually am. I dont make enough money to survive anymore, not since I had to buy that car. The car payments are killing me and now I have as much going out as I have coming in and I have no idea of what Im going to do. So far I havent been able to find a second job, Im probably going to default on my student loans (for a degree I never got anyway) and if I end up losing my car Ill lose my job. On top of everything else I still have to find a way to get tires for my car and quick. The best part is I dont even have anyone I can talk to about this. I have absolutely no emotional support system. I have no real friends to speak of and my family, well ultimately their only concerns are for themselves. I am scared shitless right now. Hey, who knows, maybe I can start a Kickstarter fundraiser to pay for my car. If you give a gift of $25 Ill send you a cute picture of my cat in a box! Yeah, somehow I dont think that will work too well.

And just to illustrate that I really have no support system, this is a thing that just happened:

My brother just got up. As he was walking past my room he said, youre up early.

Yeah, I woke myself up at 3 this morning realizing how screwed I am. I really have to find another job. I dont know what Im gonna do.

His response was to shrug and walk off. My family sucks.

Maybe Ill call in sick today so I can look for a part time job. Hell, calling in sick wouldnt be a lie, Im stressing out about this so much I am making myself sick.

If you actually read all this thanks. Im just grateful anyone paid attention my whining. As a reward, here is a cute picture of my cat in a box. His name is Bob.