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Edwardsville, KS

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Sunday Oct 24, 2010

Oct 24, 2010
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Magic.

Ive run away from it, Ive tried to ignore it, Ive even made (albeit half assed attempts at it) but it keeps coming back like a bad rash in a very troublesome place. Ive wanted to be a magician since I was about six when I saw the first Doug Henning special on TV in the seventies. After telling my mother about my career aspirations, the immediate reply was, oh, you cant do that, that isnt a real job. And thus my life outlook was born. Being raised as a Christian, or as I like to call it, being raised to never question authority and do exactly what youre told or youll go strait to hell, I just buried my dream and hoped that a sensible one would come along. It never did.

I am 40 in three weeks and I still havent done what Ive always wanted to do. Admittedly, this may just be a case of mid life crisis but damn it, I dont have a family of my own, Im in a job I fucking hate, seriously, what have I to lose at this point? Yes, Ive half-assed it before, but trying to do this in a vacuum isnt easy; I keep letting other stuff get in the way. I was a member of the IBM (that is International Brotherhood of Magicians not International Business Machines) for a year, it was probably the best year of my life. I let things get in the way and I regret it.

So, in honor of turning 40, I make these resolutions:

1. Renewing my IBM membership when I get paid Friday.
2. Not letting my own standards get in the way; keep working on my act instead of abandoning it.
3. Do this, whether its a career or a side line.
4. No turning back.

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