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yeah, i see how it works. i know. i'm sorry it's such a struggle for you right now. just keep your eyes open for opportunity - it comes when you least expect it...

I can sympathize and I'm sorry to hear things are rough. I did graphic design full time as an independent for three years. Always trying to land that big gig, that steady client that would throw me enough work to keep me fed and the bills paid. It sucked. It made me appreciate having a real paycheck. I miss the freedom. I miss the sense of building something (what, in retrospect, I'm not sure).

All you can do is keep throwing yourself at it every day. If it's what you want to be doing you'll find a way. That may sound campy but that's all I've got. Maybe you just need a break. Take a roadtrip or something.