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I miss him so much my stomach is doing flip flops. I missed his call while I was updating my phone try so I wouldn't miss his calls... irony?

How should I learn to assimilate things? I don't seem to do a good job. I won't let myself absorb things like rest, nutrition, energy, affection, sperm. How do I do it? Anyone? Anyone?

Today was pretty decent. I felt remarkably unambitious this morning. But then at ten, after my indoor cat who has no front claws (no, I didn't declaw him, the previous owner did) ran outside, I went to some pool place (they have this massive child pool that gets no deeper than 2 feet deep plus they have regular pools) with the baby and a couple...
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I'm SO tired. I finally met someone that I have a few things in common with. She's a pretty cool girl. She has a little girl who's 2. Marshall plays pretty well with her (the little girl, that is). She makes a lot of her own bodycare stuff. How cool is that? Now I have 2 Bridgeport friends Oh, and there's this other lady who...
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Our land lord is being a pain and we may not be able to get out of our lease. Which means I would visit in December like planned and then I would probably come back here.


Learn about Barrow here. I still should be there in approximately June.

I'm confused.

So, as it stands. I'm going home in December and staying till June. I'll see if my midwife needs help. Hopefully she will. Not only do I love visiting with her but I could really use some work. I know Brett will be making good money but after this last week of shopping for his trip it sure couldn't hurt to try to get out...
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So, no sooner than December I will be a resident of Alaska. Crazy, I tell you. ALASKA... BARROW, ALASKA!

News, but I can't spill yet.....


Why is it that no matter how much I get disappointed I still keep hope.

On the other hand, new changes may enable me to adopt. Which is something I want to do regardless of whether or not I actually BIRTH another babe.

I'm working on accepting that. So far, I'm doing better.

Well, I made the best potato soup I've ever had. Maybe the best soup entirely! Potato soup. I got the recipe from How it all Vegan and it is WONDERFUL! Even the boy had 2 bowls! SO YUMMY! I'm a happy, happy girl

And on the baby making front... Not much in the way of news. Finished up my period and I'm waiting to see...
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I'm thinking about starting an egroup for the high desert area. Post some flyers here and there. It covers a pretty large area, not just in my town. Plus, I need to go see that girl. I was a bad girl and had sour cream and cheese today and I will regret it. they put it on my potatoes at taco bell and I was...
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