What opens you up? What tears at your soul? What makes you vulnerable. I'm a mess. I always am. Out in public I am cool, calm, collected. Inside, silly, dumb things do this. They open me up into this vacuous black hole. For one? Movies... Movies do it to me all of the time. I see someone pretending to fall in love, pretending to hurt,...
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mindless:
Look, if I didn't "suck it up", I would end up a big pile of hurt, a big crumpled up mess in a corner crying for all sorts of pathetic reasons.........sometimes I just tell myself to let it go, because otherwise I would never even leave my home. So sometimes it's better to not let everything out. And I feel emotion for things in movies and tv because I can relate to it. Sometimes.
gingerlie:
hey sweetie. how are you doing? hows the healing? sorry ive been a mess the last few days and out of town so i havent been around much. be good. 
got my staples out today AND I'm now able to wear a few select sports bras. Yay!!!!
I hope I'm no the only one who is VERY excited to see Olivia's new set
Happy happy Joy joy
I hope I'm no the only one who is VERY excited to see Olivia's new set
Happy happy Joy joy
Mindless, this is for you!... check out the two most recent pictures in my pics.. stapled madness!
I'm so punk
I'm so punk
googused:
Ouchie!
mindless:
feeling.........queasy.......I don't know whether to thank you or vomit........shame you had to go through that, but luckily you came out alive and kicking! Gross though....ewww.....
Overdid it the 4th. Ended up hurting badly. My own damned fault. I just wanted to have fun with my family. Today is dedicated to sitting on my ass and relaxing.. which means I need to get my ass of this computer. Something about how I sit here... no matter how I sit here, that makes the staples under my left breast just DIG into...
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mindless:
Damn, staples under your breasts...........yeeesh......how do you do it?
We went to a small town 4th event today.. we're going back too.. We all just needed to relax a bit so we went home. Pig slept, Brett cleaned, I took drugs and slept. I looked VERY out of place by small town standards.. hehe.. oh well, it was fun. Piggy got to ride on a PONY. Oh how he loved that! We're heading back...
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overdid it yesterday. I was just being careful making sure I didn't rip my stitches.... didn't know just tiring myself out would hurt me. I did a crapload of laundry and dishes and cleaned up after the kidlets. I woke up just sore as hell.... ::sigh::
I'll be more careful next time.
I'll be more careful next time.
tjaden:
:-(
soon enough...
soon enough...
pyronautica:
I fricking hate stitches. Have you ever had them in your mouth?! Now THAT sucks!
I don't think I realized how much I would actually need the muscle relaxers... I feel like I was hit by a truck. I'll be so happy when I'm done with the healing/medicated part of this scenic trip.
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azura:
Terra... something or other
hahaha look how well i remember
i looked it up, Terra Resource Group
hahaha look how well i remember
i looked it up, Terra Resource Group
mindless:
Hey, lemme at those muscle relaxers.........
neeeeeed...... drugs........
......out of muscle relaxers
..... almost out of vicodin
Luckily Brett is picking up my refil tomorrow.. I thought I was getting better :'( I mean, I know I am, but I thought I could reduce the meds already... guess not
......out of muscle relaxers
..... almost out of vicodin
Luckily Brett is picking up my refil tomorrow.. I thought I was getting better :'( I mean, I know I am, but I thought I could reduce the meds already... guess not
purpledaisy:
i know how ya feel, i take meds for my kidneys(vicodin etc) if i dont have them it is worse, i try to go without so i dont become addicted...well anyways you are a cute and much love
correction... My doc took OVER 2 pounds out of each breast and spent more like an hour and a half extra to make sure all my parts were working better.. he says my healing is going beautifully... one more week of the retarded tube top netting thing and the couple staples I have... ::sigh:: I'm still glad everything is going so well.
mei:
the drawing is beyootiful!! thank you so much!!
good luck with your healing.. though it sounds like your doctor was all the luck you need!
good luck with your healing.. though it sounds like your doctor was all the luck you need!
mindless:
I didn't mean YOU when I said people kept asking me what the tattoo meant. I was talking about people who don't understand what I'm into, or don't get things like this, or don't relate. You know? And I'm glad to hear you're doing good now. Get better soon!!
argh!!!!!!!
my breasts itch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my breasts itch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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vastad:
hahaha...thanks for the compliment.
I admire you because I have an inkling that you haven't really told me how bad it was being a teenager. And it's so good to have you around and getting on with your life, pursuing happiness.
Honestly...once I hit 14 or 15, the rest of my career as a teenager was shite. Most of it was in my head of course, but how can you know that as a teen with all these social forces storming around you? The only reason I didn't get overwhelmed until I was 14 was because my mental age was about 2 years behind everyone else. I was very childish at 12 years old. More like a 9 year old. SO when all the social intrigues and delicate balances began coming in, I was completely oblivious to who I was being rejected by, who was insulting me etc.
I admire you because I have an inkling that you haven't really told me how bad it was being a teenager. And it's so good to have you around and getting on with your life, pursuing happiness.
Honestly...once I hit 14 or 15, the rest of my career as a teenager was shite. Most of it was in my head of course, but how can you know that as a teen with all these social forces storming around you? The only reason I didn't get overwhelmed until I was 14 was because my mental age was about 2 years behind everyone else. I was very childish at 12 years old. More like a 9 year old. SO when all the social intrigues and delicate balances began coming in, I was completely oblivious to who I was being rejected by, who was insulting me etc.
googused:
Well, that's a good sign that all the nerves are working!
Thanks for all the well wishes....
I'm only up because its almost time for my meds and I need to actually stay awake long enough to eat and get something in my stomach.
So, Wednesday morning I played around a bit trying to make sure I didn't forget anything I needed to take... I didn't. Took my Valium on the way to the doctor's office....
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I'm only up because its almost time for my meds and I need to actually stay awake long enough to eat and get something in my stomach.
So, Wednesday morning I played around a bit trying to make sure I didn't forget anything I needed to take... I didn't. Took my Valium on the way to the doctor's office....
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alrighty.. last post... here we go... Wish me luck!!!!
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distant:
hope the surgery goes well!!!!!!!!
gingerlie:
YAY! when you get home let me know sweetie! i hope youre feeling well.