so...what the hell??
ok, been hanging with the ex a lot lately. last friday night i was at her place until about 1am, just talking and doing work. i was about to leave at 11pm, but we kind of started talking about our relationship again, what went wrong in the past, why i acted the way i did, why i still wanted her, etc. THEN, at 1am i was about to leave again, when her roommate and a friend came back from the bar, all drunk. the friend asked me for some advice on her boy problems, so i said 'sure, go ahead.' so she's telling me that she's been broken up with a guy for 6 months, but she can't get over him, still loves him, doesn't know what to do...which is exactly what i'm going through
so she's asking me these things, asking whether she's a loser, asking if she should keep fighting, and whatnot, while me and the ex had JUST been talking about that stuff before they came in, and she was still IN THE ROOM while i was answering these questions. we were just looking at each other and laughing at the absurdity of the situation. talk about awkward.
saturday, after telling me that she felt a little disappointed that i didn't come over that night even though we hadn't made plans together, she came out with a couple of my friends and we had a lot of fun. we danced, we drank, i walked her home at 5am and kissed her twice on the forehead.
sunday, i was at her place from 10:30am - 12:30am. doing work, eating together, watched a movie.
monday, went to the library on campus together at 10pm.
tonight, was at her place from 8pm - 2am, again, doing work and just hanging out.
now, we talk about sex a lot. we've basically admitted that we want to have sex with each other a whooooole lot, but nothing's really happened yet. we tease each other about it a lot, threatening to ravage one another every half-hour or so, talking about how long her orgasm would probably take (we figured about 35 seconds), and other such things. we haven't done anything because neither of us are sure how awkward it might be between us afterwards.
i hate doing this to myself
ok, been hanging with the ex a lot lately. last friday night i was at her place until about 1am, just talking and doing work. i was about to leave at 11pm, but we kind of started talking about our relationship again, what went wrong in the past, why i acted the way i did, why i still wanted her, etc. THEN, at 1am i was about to leave again, when her roommate and a friend came back from the bar, all drunk. the friend asked me for some advice on her boy problems, so i said 'sure, go ahead.' so she's telling me that she's been broken up with a guy for 6 months, but she can't get over him, still loves him, doesn't know what to do...which is exactly what i'm going through
so she's asking me these things, asking whether she's a loser, asking if she should keep fighting, and whatnot, while me and the ex had JUST been talking about that stuff before they came in, and she was still IN THE ROOM while i was answering these questions. we were just looking at each other and laughing at the absurdity of the situation. talk about awkward.
saturday, after telling me that she felt a little disappointed that i didn't come over that night even though we hadn't made plans together, she came out with a couple of my friends and we had a lot of fun. we danced, we drank, i walked her home at 5am and kissed her twice on the forehead.
sunday, i was at her place from 10:30am - 12:30am. doing work, eating together, watched a movie.
monday, went to the library on campus together at 10pm.
tonight, was at her place from 8pm - 2am, again, doing work and just hanging out.
now, we talk about sex a lot. we've basically admitted that we want to have sex with each other a whooooole lot, but nothing's really happened yet. we tease each other about it a lot, threatening to ravage one another every half-hour or so, talking about how long her orgasm would probably take (we figured about 35 seconds), and other such things. we haven't done anything because neither of us are sure how awkward it might be between us afterwards.
i hate doing this to myself
The only difference is that my ex has a boyfriend that she's been with for 3 years and she's getting bored of him.
I'm not one to make a person cheat so we absolutely can't do anything. I wouldn't allow it anyway.