el_oso

well, things have been a little strange. ever since me and the ex had that 2-hour drunken conversation last friday night at 2am, we've been talking a lot ever since. we've talked on the phone during the day and pretty much every night before going to bed, talking over MSN, e-mails. we've both had a lot of schoolwork to do, but are still making the time for each other.

she's got a lot of work due next week, and so i'm going to be helping her out with a couple of essays, so i'll probably be spending time at her house this weekend. now, before anybody thinks she's just using me, let me say that not once did she ask for help, nor whine about how much work she had. i brought the topic up since i was relatively free of work for the next couple of weeks. but anyways, it's all kind of strange because i'm not sure what's goign on between us.

we hadn't talked for over a week before our phone conversation on friday (i chose not to even try to talk to her), and now suddenly after we have that long phone conversation where i once again pledged my undying love to her, we're talking every day and things are just great between us. i still get the feeling that she's not ready to give this another try, and so i wonder if i'm just setting myself up for a fall here. then again...i may never really see her again if i leave here in May, and if that's the case, i would for the rest of my life regret not spending as much time with her as i can.

aw fuck. women

i just gotta go out and get drunk and not think about all this stuff.