good grief.
i'm so tired of being all hung up on that girl i used to have. it's been about 5 months now, and it's still on my mind all the time. scheming how to get her back, wondering what she's doing, writing poetry about it, blah blah blah. sometimes i get moments of clarity when i realize that there's nothing left for me to do, that i've tried my best and i've got to give up now. sometimes i wonder if it's really HER that i want, or if i'm just blindly fighting to get her back. i just don't know...
anyway the plan is to finish up school here..i'll be graduating with an honours degree in anthropology this may. hard to believe that 4 years have gone by so quickly. then i'm off to work at a fishing resort for the summer to save up some major $$. THEN! it's off to Europe for this guy. i'm planning on living and working in London for a while, then off to see the rest of the world. i am getting pretty damn excited about it, it's not an opportunity that many people have. yet at the same time i'm scared to leave here, scared to leave everything i've ever known behind. but, my wanderlust is too powerful to ignore.
anyways...how are you people?
i'm so tired of being all hung up on that girl i used to have. it's been about 5 months now, and it's still on my mind all the time. scheming how to get her back, wondering what she's doing, writing poetry about it, blah blah blah. sometimes i get moments of clarity when i realize that there's nothing left for me to do, that i've tried my best and i've got to give up now. sometimes i wonder if it's really HER that i want, or if i'm just blindly fighting to get her back. i just don't know...
anyway the plan is to finish up school here..i'll be graduating with an honours degree in anthropology this may. hard to believe that 4 years have gone by so quickly. then i'm off to work at a fishing resort for the summer to save up some major $$. THEN! it's off to Europe for this guy. i'm planning on living and working in London for a while, then off to see the rest of the world. i am getting pretty damn excited about it, it's not an opportunity that many people have. yet at the same time i'm scared to leave here, scared to leave everything i've ever known behind. but, my wanderlust is too powerful to ignore.
anyways...how are you people?
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I want to say "fuck you, Lucy" for not needing me
I want to say "fuck you",
'Cuz I still love you.
No, I'm not okay and I don't know what to do."
I know how you feel man. I have a Lucy too. HAD one. Tenga fe, amigo. Good guys will always have their day. Nice guys might finish last, but when they finish they're definitely the happiest.
i mean i lied to the girl so much that she didn't even know me.
and when i finally realized what i had, she realized what she hadn't. so another one bites the dust.
oh well, as you crazy frenchies say, c'est la vie.
hehe
best of luck with that man