well, i thought it appropriate to update and stuff.
the other night was cool. i got to hang out with a friend who i thought was a potential g/f but then was rejected. that sucks.
anyway, um.. yeah, it was cool. we just hung out and burnt our tongues with mexican food.
*damn i wish i had a good sexual enuendo-enduced line to follow that up.
and also, i finally got the chance to talk to my recent crush. i pretty much told her that its not cool to lead me on and that i am givin up on the whole thing. i think she felt bad.
oh well.
today i was watching some show on tv about marriages and they were showing all of these couples getting married and people were all crying and saying 'wow...how beautiful.' and for one second i thought 'hm... i can honestly never see myself getting married'. why? cause the whole scene was just...i dunno. i just couldnt see myself in that groom position. its weird.
i never really told many people but i have this feeling that i am not gonna be living past the age of thirty. people get pissed and are all 'dont say that,' but its just this feeling i have. i dunno. i have a lot of feelings about a lot of things in my life. things i think will and should come to pass. other times i believe i can change all of that. kind of like a philosophy that you make your own destiny. like, i have this feeling that if i have children, my first child will be a girl. i dunno. and it sucks cause i feel solidly that i wont see past thirty. a kid and dead by thirty. i dont even know where to go with that... and i guess i am not really afraid of death or anything. it just sucks more for those who have to live and mourn through death.
man, i am being all morbid.
on to more brighter things....
in about a week i will be going up to washington to hang out with velvetwood for about a week or so. that'll be cool.
plus i am savin cash for a new truck. i am gonna get a chevy colorado. its a pretty sic truck. oh...plus, i did buy slipknots new album. badass. some people say they went soft but you cant expect a band to stay the same forever, you'd get bored hearing the same thing out of the same band.
well, i am off to...um...do stuff. i got nothin. *holds head down.
the other night was cool. i got to hang out with a friend who i thought was a potential g/f but then was rejected. that sucks.
anyway, um.. yeah, it was cool. we just hung out and burnt our tongues with mexican food.
*damn i wish i had a good sexual enuendo-enduced line to follow that up.
and also, i finally got the chance to talk to my recent crush. i pretty much told her that its not cool to lead me on and that i am givin up on the whole thing. i think she felt bad.
oh well.
today i was watching some show on tv about marriages and they were showing all of these couples getting married and people were all crying and saying 'wow...how beautiful.' and for one second i thought 'hm... i can honestly never see myself getting married'. why? cause the whole scene was just...i dunno. i just couldnt see myself in that groom position. its weird.
i never really told many people but i have this feeling that i am not gonna be living past the age of thirty. people get pissed and are all 'dont say that,' but its just this feeling i have. i dunno. i have a lot of feelings about a lot of things in my life. things i think will and should come to pass. other times i believe i can change all of that. kind of like a philosophy that you make your own destiny. like, i have this feeling that if i have children, my first child will be a girl. i dunno. and it sucks cause i feel solidly that i wont see past thirty. a kid and dead by thirty. i dont even know where to go with that... and i guess i am not really afraid of death or anything. it just sucks more for those who have to live and mourn through death.
man, i am being all morbid.
on to more brighter things....
in about a week i will be going up to washington to hang out with velvetwood for about a week or so. that'll be cool.
plus i am savin cash for a new truck. i am gonna get a chevy colorado. its a pretty sic truck. oh...plus, i did buy slipknots new album. badass. some people say they went soft but you cant expect a band to stay the same forever, you'd get bored hearing the same thing out of the same band.
well, i am off to...um...do stuff. i got nothin. *holds head down.