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ok, so I'm pretty ood with all the stuff I'm doing community wise, but it just doesn't pay the bills. So i've got this insurance sales gig to get the bills paid, and it works it pays ok, and gives me time to play, if I didn't blow it all with volenteering. Today while down about work I surfed the web and found a job...
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2am, it's been a while.
Owning a buisness (coffee house) is alot like being in a hyper obsessive relationship. One that you have no life while your in it. it's been five months since I closed the shop and I'm still rediscovering the parts of me that I had to squelch away to keep the business going.
I spent the night out at a friends...
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it's that time again.

I can feel the cogs somewhere deep inside turning. It starts with a vauge nastalgic feeling of lives lived in the last 20 years. A longing for who I feel I should have been vs who I've become. The feelings will keep building on a deeper level while my conciousness slowly begins lookoing for a release and getting more frantic as...
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IT"S SNOWING!!!!! finaly, this year has been pathetic so far.
It help to bring my mood up, especially now that is a nice lazy sunday.

I'm in trouble, see I got my first Tatoo, pic comming soon, and it felt great. Now I just have to find the design and $ for the next. but hey, with a real job maybe I can pull it...
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GGGGRRRAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Why do Ex's have to be so difficult. my god she's a pain in the ass. We were both pretty mean to eachother, but after she's come down with heppies she blames me, even though we've been apart for two years and I've never shown symptoms. Shejust thinks that every other of her partners were virgins, exept me? Anyway, that's what started the day...
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Ok, decomression is necesary. First day of work, out going door to door. Glad I've only got to do that on the first day. I've had over three years of people walking into my buisness selling anything you could imagine and then some. No I get to be the person walking through someone elses door. retrobution maybe.
Just needing to remember: this isn't the dream,...
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Talk about a new world. thre and a half years of runing a politcy oriented coffee house and now selling insurance, because I don't want to leave this small town thats become home. Thruth is stranger than fiction. Tomarrows the first day, lets see what it feels like to ride the fence of selling out.......

Well then, things are perked up a bit. Lots of things in life are pretty good, even though I can see a major cross roads comming up.
I'm leaving in two days (march 20th) for Colombia. Going down to learn how U.S. foriegn policy is affecting coffee farmers, as well as spend a few days with a close friend. I'm exited and a bit nervous...
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Thanks for some of the good words. an uplifting is sometimes needed. So, things are still bout the same, but I'm more content for now, we'll see how long that lasts.
I'm going out this afternoon to shoot a SG appication for bunniellicious kinda jazzed even though the weather bites right now. then headed home to spend the eavning with someone special, and watching Casablanca...
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Alright, first try at a web journal.
I'm 25, I've owned a coffee house for three years that's been on the verge of succes for the last two years. Starting to hit burn out, and trying to figure out what to do to aviod it. How do you know when it's time to bale from what your doing?
To give you an idea where I'm...
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