discomfort of breaking away from the life that Ive been used to is easing. Ive got a month in Los Angeles and two more to go, things here are what Ive been needing. Working 80hr weeks, and being insignificant enough that no one here really knows me or cares. The anonymity is a wonderful feeling. It allows for internal exploration without the influence of a whole town that knows you, that looks at everything you do and say. I do miss home, by the change is nice.
I was hitting an emotional low point, which was making everything bad, so action was needed. And here I am in L.A. till May working my ass off. I came here for that reason, and one other. That is to make enough to cover my half of our (girlfriend and my) mortgage while Im gone in the peace corps for two years. Yet being here makes me wonder if leaving for two years is the right thing. I would love to go for so many reasons, but I also love Jess and my small town that I just bitched about. Im curious about the unknowable changes that will come, and if its worth parting from the good things that I have.
I was hitting an emotional low point, which was making everything bad, so action was needed. And here I am in L.A. till May working my ass off. I came here for that reason, and one other. That is to make enough to cover my half of our (girlfriend and my) mortgage while Im gone in the peace corps for two years. Yet being here makes me wonder if leaving for two years is the right thing. I would love to go for so many reasons, but I also love Jess and my small town that I just bitched about. Im curious about the unknowable changes that will come, and if its worth parting from the good things that I have.
Good luck and take care.
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